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Back in late January, I received an email communication between a few white administrators at my job about me. This email thread included inflammatory comments, false accusations, harsh criticisms and coded anti-Black racist and ableist language to rationalize why I was undeserving of a two year contract extension. After receiving this email, I experienced harassment, bullying, surveillance, retaliation and hostility from these same administrators (with the assistance of others). It’s important to note that all of this occurred in the midst of training for a campus wide event and throughout the entirety of Black History Month (I was responsible for leading both).
This situation harmed and traumatized me in ways that felt almost impossible to come back from. For weeks, I cried between meetings and 1:1s; it took me 2-3 days to finish a single meal; I was constantly looking over my shoulder; and, I hadn’t had a restful night of sleep. Being humiliated, dehumanized, repeatedly gaslit and disrespected only worsened my anxiety, depression, and caused me to contemplate suicide more than once. I was exhausted… (I honestly still am). But I knew, I could not in good faith continue to work for and under people who overworked me, had unreasonable constantly changing expectations of me, wanted nothing more than to subject me to (c)overt antiBlack racism and ableism, wield power over me, and who had utter disdain for me. Not only was it unrealistic but it wasn’t worth my life.
This is all that I am able to say on the matter at this time. Since my finances, health insurance, and housing were tied to my employment, I’m in desperate need of financial assistance for up to a year. Please donate to and/or share my GoFundMe page to help me cover rent, utilities, food/meals, expenses for my ESA, intensive therapy, medical treatment, and the costs of seeking legal counsel.
Thank you in advance for reading my story and for your support.
Tynesha
“I have come to believe over and over again that what is most important to me must be spoken, made verbal and shared, even at the risk of having it bruised or misunderstood. That the speaking profits me, beyond any other effect.”
- Audre Lorde
This situation harmed and traumatized me in ways that felt almost impossible to come back from. For weeks, I cried between meetings and 1:1s; it took me 2-3 days to finish a single meal; I was constantly looking over my shoulder; and, I hadn’t had a restful night of sleep. Being humiliated, dehumanized, repeatedly gaslit and disrespected only worsened my anxiety, depression, and caused me to contemplate suicide more than once. I was exhausted… (I honestly still am). But I knew, I could not in good faith continue to work for and under people who overworked me, had unreasonable constantly changing expectations of me, wanted nothing more than to subject me to (c)overt antiBlack racism and ableism, wield power over me, and who had utter disdain for me. Not only was it unrealistic but it wasn’t worth my life.
This is all that I am able to say on the matter at this time. Since my finances, health insurance, and housing were tied to my employment, I’m in desperate need of financial assistance for up to a year. Please donate to and/or share my GoFundMe page to help me cover rent, utilities, food/meals, expenses for my ESA, intensive therapy, medical treatment, and the costs of seeking legal counsel.
Thank you in advance for reading my story and for your support.
Tynesha
“I have come to believe over and over again that what is most important to me must be spoken, made verbal and shared, even at the risk of having it bruised or misunderstood. That the speaking profits me, beyond any other effect.”
- Audre Lorde