Two Jobs Aren't Enough: I Need Your Help

Hello everyone, I know I have meet most everyone on my friend list. Most know about myself right now, where I'm working, going to music festivals and try to share Mental Health Awareness.

Since I started trying to get some info out about Mental illness, I have changed a lot of things in my life, including going to therapy, having medical to help with my depression and anxiety, and changed if not stopped all bad habits.

Now there is the part only a select few know. Years ago I had a addiction to Alcohol and pain medicine. I have since quit doing both of these, went to a rehab to start getting the steps of how to change my life, and get these substances out and keep me from going back to them. I wanted to clear up a couple things. I never did any street drug! I never shot up, smoked, snorted, stoled or injected myself with anything. My addiction was alcohol, pain pills and benzo pills. These are one I got for myself as a script or bought them from a person I knew. Because of all the street drugs, and never knowing what you got when you bought off the street, I stayed im contact with 2 people who would sell their prescriptions, and show me the pill bottles that they came from. I never took any medication from anyone I was caring for during this time.

I have, since the day I wanted to get clean, I have blocked their numbers, blocked them on any social media site and I no longer go to anyplace that they would go to and visit.

I am really serious about this journey and praying day by day. This has been a long and hard road with slips and falls here and there. To be able to say I am clean and sober now, and removed all the desire I had for them. They caused a number of problems for me over all these years.

Now clean I am taking the path, so that I may practice in the nursing field again, and be in a field of work that I enjoy. I started in a program all TNPAP. This program is a geared for me to take responsibility of my health, addictions, and daily monitoring of myself and what is going on with me. This program is what the state board of nursing requires me to work with, and complete the program with no issues. Like I said this program requires me to check in daily with a case worker, frequent drug test, both urine and blood, AA or NA meetings twice a week, and therapy. I was granted permission to join this program and have been in it since March of 2025. The amount of time to complete this is 36 months. While in the program, I am not allowed to go to the board of nursing to request to get my license back, until I get 24 months finished and not have any issues with any kind of medication or alcohol. Once 24 months are up, I can try to get a job in nursing with restrictions, and get another program to monitor me. So from month 25 to 36, I have restrictions, monitoring by 2 companies, still having frequent drug test, and keep on going to therapy.

Now this is where the problem comes. All items that are done with this program is self pay. Each therapy session is self pay, amd will not take insurance. Each drug test is have to pay out of pocket, along with the monitoring programs that monitor me daily. I have a factory job, and a second job on the side which is delivering food, which I do when I'm not at the factory.

Now, even with the 2 jobs, I am drowning. I have empty out my savings, just to get into the program and make it this far I to the program. I am dedicated to this program and doing whatever I have to stay in this program. Beside the cost that I listed above, I also have drive over an hour and half away to the closest testing facility that does the blood test. They have very few testing facilities, that are setup to do the blood test. I have looked at all the choices they have to do the blood test. The closest was one and half away and the next facility about that is about 2 hours away. The amount I am trying to get is a total for the entire 36 months. These are the monthly fees for talk therapy and medication therapists. The cost of the prescriptions, because insurance will cover one antidepressants but they will not cover the second one. The urine drug test that I have to pay out of pocket because insurance will not over them. Then the cost for the blood work drug test, again insurance won't cover this, and this one is anywhere from an hour and half to two hours away from me, and it has to be certain sites that TNPAP has a contract with them, but this one is every 3 months. Then, the monitoring and increase drug test at month 25 to 36, because this a additional company. I can and will post receipts of these things.

I've cut back on all my spending and cut waste anywhere I could. I now just work and stay home, avoiding fast food, restaurants, and no getting things at the gas station. Quitting any habits that I have. I am constantly cutting any penny I can. Taking food from home, drinking tap water, and just refilling my container with water when I need something to drink. And I'm still not making enough for everything. I have canceled every thing I could, even events and trips that I paid for last year. I am not planning on going anywhere or doing anything that I enjoy, until I am done with the program and be able to work as a nurse again.

That's why I am coming to ask for help. With my paycheck and my bills I'm not able to pay everything, just so I can make the payments to this program.