I would like to "pay back" those who can donate by sending custom miniature paintings, as I am in a difficult financial situation after the loss of my twin babies. Please read below for details.

After a very long time, I was blessed to become pregnant. On October 21st 2020, I found out I was having having not one precious baby, but twins! However, with only one faint heartbeat, and the other one unseen, for the following week we prayed and hoped and prayed more to find two strong heartbeats at my next ultrasound. On October 28th 2020, we found both heartbeats to be gone.

Beginning of my nightmare. 

Following the d&c surgery, I was called into a surgeon's office, and I heard the WORST set of words for a person in my situation: "I know these are not the news you were hoping to hear, but...." .... I was diagnosed with Partial Molar Pregnancy. 

PMP is a very rare genetic disorder (0.01% - 0.005%, or 1 in 10,000 - 20,000, mostly in very young, or older womens pregnancies; I am 31 years old...), forms a tumor in a uterus which then takes over an unborn child - in my situation, my twin babies.

My doctor advised me to go on birth control, and biweekly blood exams to monitor the tumor (the mole), for 6 months as is standard for PMP/CMP cases, for cancer risk management. 

After a few months of uncontrollable grief, I've summoned the strength to review my d&c hospital bills.... 

DOS $448.50

ER $1,769.25

Facility visit $1,056

Surgeon $665

Surgery bill $12,215.73*

Pathology $42.26

Anasthesia $1,743

NEO genomic $1,218

Total for hospital: $19,157.74

*hospital is negotiating this bill and it is still in review, but currently at full cost. I will adjust this number as I will be getting readjusted bill.

I missed being eligible for charity care by approximately $4,000. I am single home owner in New Jersey with a mortgage, but charity care doesn't take expenses in consideration when approving or denying applicants. I really am in no position to pay this bill. 

The payment plan the hospital wants to put me on is for 2 out of 8 of the above bills; DOS and Surgery, which they want to do $250/month for 5 YEARS. This doesn't include the remaining 6 out of 8 separate bills which total $6,497. 

All of the above DOES NOT INCLUDE doctors bills or bloodwork bills (and I haven't even looked to count the total $ for these), which are:

- my pregnancy OBGYN visits plus 3 ultrasounds

- OBGYN used for confirmation of miscarriage plus ultrasound 

- visit at OBGYN who preformed surgery plus ultrasound 

- bloodwork for 6weeks of pregnancy

- bloodwork for PMP, 4 times so far

My insurance (Multiplan, preventive services only) denied coverage for any pregnancy-related costs. I've had some money saved up for the upcoming babies, but not enough to cover the cost of losing my children and still have enough to hope to try for another pregnancy in future.

My family does not live in NJ with me and are not in position to be of financial support..

I am begging for financial help, because I am not earning enough monthly to cover my expenses and pay these bills. 

However, I am a /loosely put/ self-taught artist and if you will email me at [email redacted] or message me on my Instagram [email redacted]r (public account) with whatever it is you want custom painted and your mailing address, I will paint and send you a mini painting (4x4) or a tiny-painting magnet (2x2). 

I am posting some of the mini paintings I've done recently just as reference of my work. 

I'm also posting photos of the bills with critical information whited out for authenticy, of how ridiculous the cost of losing children can be

Thank you all