Hey, my name is Sid! I’m a 25 year old trans person based in Manchester. I’ve created this Gofund me to help with the costs of gender-affirming top surgery. I find it extremely hard to be vulnerable and ask for help, especially so publicly, but the dysphoria I experience daily is becoming too much to bear. I simply can’t afford this surgery by myself. I have started to save for my surgery, but I need help from others to get there quicker.

When I hit puberty and developed a large chest, I was told by numerous people that it was my best asset. I was apparently so lucky to have it. I remember hating them, and always wishing for a smaller chest. As a deeply insecure person I thought I had to embrace it. I thought they were the only part of me that made me attractive to others. My insecurity and desperation to be wanted completely controlled my life. It wasn’t until the pandemic, and I was forced to sit with myself, that I was able to discover who I was. Even then, I still pushed the feelings about my gender down as I worried greatly about what people would think.

For as long as I can remember I have felt uncomfortable in my body. When I allowed myself to acknowledge these feelings about my gender, I came to the realisation that these feelings were dysphoria. The image of myself and how I feel about myself don’t match what I see in the mirror and how other people perceive me.

Since then I’ve been experimenting with my gender expression to feel less dysphoric, and more myself. Changing my name and pronouns has helped greatly, but not enough. Wearing a binder has affirmed these feelings too, however, when I have to take my binder off, these feelings come rushing back. Although wearing a binder helps me mentally, they’re physically very uncomfortable and can cause irreversible health issues in the long run.

Getting this surgery would change my life. It would make my day to day more bearable. Any help would be so appreciated!

Thank you so much for taking the time to read this, and maybe donating too! I know times are hard so please don’t donate if you can’t. Sharing is also super helpful!

Lots of love,

Sid x

edit - the reason it says the money is being raised for Kate goad is because I don’t want the money in my black hole of an overdraft account, so it’s been put in a bank account my mum doesn’t use Xox