**WARNING** The video at the bottom of this text is very hard to watch. Personally, I cant watching it with the sound on and have to skip through it.

Unfortunately because of all the accusations of me lying, I've chosen to re-release it.

Hey so I'm well aware this is the second time there's been a gofundme made for my domestic. The first one got about 1/4 of the donation goal. I figured I'd be able to recover the rest if I worked super hard but at this point, I feel like a hamster spinning in a wheel and I'm out of time..

2 years ago, I had my entire home destroyed. Every tv, computer, gaming system, the walls, carpets, almost every piece of furniture, 10 years of cosplay costumes, all gone. Since his name was on the lease, I got NOTHING out of it from him. I spent 2 years in a brutal domestic relationship that cost me not only the belongings I worked my entire life for, but my mental and physical well-being as well. I'm trying my best to heal and move on, which includes moving out of the house I was abused in. To this day, I'm still being actively targeted and harassed regularly. Long story short, for my own safety, I need to move asap. My abuser is still trying to get to me.

Unfortunately I'm not allowed to legally go further into details publically.

Restraining order was granted. I've since been professionally diagnosed with severe ptsd, fibromyalgia, and a slew of other chronic health conditions. I'm actively in recovery doing intensive EMDR therapy and self-guided DBT. Surgery for a few conditions has been recommended, but I want to see if working on my mental health helps with my pain levels before I agree to surgery. Between both my therapist, and the police, it's been advised in order to take the next step, I need to move.

Right now, Im making JUUUUST enough to pay for my rent. My bills are all going on my card. This means saving enough to move, hasn't been able to happen. I need first months rent, half months rent for damage deposit, pet fee, and moving truck. Im asking for help funding my move. I don't mind leaving the debt from replacing items on my card for me to deal with in time, I also don't mind paying for therapy on my own, but moving isn't something I can keep on the back burner. I deserve to finally feel a sense of peace and safety for the first time in 4 years, this cant happen while my abuser has my current address.

I wont even lie, just making this post has my anxiety spiked. I posted it once and removed it because an anon account is already harrassing me for it.... but I cant allow myself to be bullied into submission.

PLEASE DO NOT DONATE IF YOU CANT AFFORD IT. I don't want people to feel pressured into donating. Please only help if you're capable. Anything helps and Im grateful to anyone that offers to be there for me.

Im very overwhelmed and have been pushing off the last few stages of recovery for long enough. I didn't want to ask for help, but I don't feel I have any other choice. Im not on assistance. I started doing onlyfans full-time again but unfortunately haven't been able to make enough and don't like feeling as if Im pressured to do more than Im comfortable with just to get myself to a point of safety. If you can donate, or share, I appreciate it.

The first time I asked for help, I had a lot of people making awful comments about how I deserved to be abused, how I was taking advantage of others because my "insurance should cover it" (his name was on the lease.... I got 0$ from him, or insurance) or that I was faking it *eyeroll* so I stopped sharing the original gofundme out of guilt much earlier than I should have.

Anyways, sorry for asking for help again. Hopefully I can finally move on and start to really heal once Im somewhere safe.

Thanks for taking the time to read. And a bigger thanks to anyone that isn't judgemental of me for having to make this.

****TRIGGER WARNING: DOMESTIC ABUSE*****

The video below is 2 of 3 floors of the house I rent the day I came home after staying with a friend. Police refused to arrest him after pulling a knife on me and my friends, and allowed him to stay in the house (no idea why). I didn't feel safe staying, so I took my (at the time) 1 cat and a bag of things and had police bring me to stay at a friends place for a few days. While I was at my friends, my ex took the opportunity to destroy everything I owned.

Originally I had the goal set at $2000, I added to it in hopes to cover some of the cost of debt I grew replacing items.