Treat Psoriasis and Monthly bills

Hi I’m Joseph.

I was diagnosed when I was 17-18 with psoriasis. It was manageable and I had constant treatment and it didn’t affect my daily life. Once I turned 21 I lost all my health insurance and when that 200$ bill for just a doctor visit arrived in the mail I felt a chill in my body. I haven’t had a steady form of treatment since and I’m now 26.

I’ve spent 5 years battling this endless war my body has against itself.

I’ve been without a job since April 2021 due to contracting Covid. I’ve since have had crippling anxiety compounded on top my psoriasis getting worse from being sick. I’ve left the house less than 10 times since 2021.

I have severe self esteem issues and can hardly face myself in the mirror. It’s very difficult to bathe due to when water touches my skin it burns from the cracks. That’s on top of if I have the energy to make an attempt at hygiene that day.

I feel trapped and imprisoned in my own body and mind and often contemplate if it’s worth still going on.

I’m under constant worry from my family who I live with that they’ll kick me out and I’ll be on the street because of my illness. I try my best everyday to keep the house clean but I leave dust piles in my wake when I leave my room. It feels like I’m suffocating.

I feel at times completely hopeless. I feel worthless. I tried applying for disability and state help and was denied. I have no form of transportation.

I’m tired of being attacked and called lazy when I’m trying my best just to survive.

If you’ve made it this far thank you for reading my story. If you are able to help me just by sharing that would mean so much.