“Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.” RUMI

I've had incredible journeys in this life so far, and there's an other one laying right ahead of me, i.e. I have my topsurgery scheduled February 2019. 

My journey in claiming my transness has been not the easiest. Let's say I didn't start life thinking that I was born in the wrong body. Yet I always resisted my socialisation as a female, while weirdly trying to perform it  to the best of my abilities, while at the same time carrying so much shame and guilt for not being able to meet those random standards of femalehood.  Being surrounded by people who see me and uplift in all of my irregular shapes, really allowed me to SEE myself and to open a door to a new becoming that feels weirdly like a homecoming. I'm forever thankful to the militant care and support of my community!

For a couple of years I've been wondering about topsurgery. In no means I believe that using hormones and choosing surgery determines one's transness, as #transisbeautiful in all its forms. Yet I feel like this surgery is the best decision for me and my body. I feel ready to more open and free in my body, carrying myself with all the trust and security I need through this world. I will no longer be caged in my binder. I will transition into an other me, and become the weirdo warrior that is lurking within. I'm a fierce believer in this world, and with a more empowered body and spirit I will continue resisting all the bullshit and fight for all the dark complex beauty in this world. 

I've chosen to have my surgery in Germany as it's important for my mental health to be outside of NL. Next to that, the gender clinic at the VU is the only genderclinic  in the whole of Netherlands and their waiting list for a first meeting is  at least 2y... Can u imagine the agony! So since the surgery takes place in Germany my insurance won't cover it. And as my economic influx is focused on finishing my choreography degree I will be needing all the help I can to cover the costs for this surgery/this becoming of an other me. 

My expenses are divided as following: €3550 for the surgery. €300 for travels. €150 for post-op binder. As I'll be missing two months of work due to recovery, an extra €1000 is also included in my budget. Finally 3% of the €5150 goal will go towards processing fees. 

If all the 500 lovely fairies i know donate €10, then I'll be there with a bat of an eyelash ;)

I like water paintings, i love writing poetry, and i love recording silly dances. I would gladly offer you one of these as a gift for ur support!

Thank you so much for your time and attention! 

Be safe and be magical :)

<3 Raoni