Tough times, honest man that needs help.

I want to start by saying, words cannot describe the mental struggle i find myself in publically writing this. I have worked hard for everything i have and am proud that I can say I have achieved it myself. This year of 2020 has broken me to my core, and has brought me lower then I could ever imagine. I am a proud man, and I do not like to ask for help, but give it. It's hard for me to write, Or to even come up with the words to say "I need help" and when I say I need help I mean mentally, religiously and financially. I took a large risk and decided to open a small business in event ticket sales 2 years ago, and am proud to say we did it with minimal financial obligations. It was rough and learning stuff that I have never learned before with many trials and errors  during these 2 years but we managed to keep it together, and provide excellent customer service with many repeat customers. We profited both years. As you can imagine, we are in one of the biggest industries to be hit by this Pandemic. We have no idea when the US will stabilize again and be able to turn our call center back on. We have lasted as long as possible, but now my stresses are to my breaking point as we have applied for business and personal loans and were denied due to how new our business is and the industry that it is in. An explanation as to the issue we are facing, of course we are unable to take calls and sell tickets, but due to the pandemic many events are being cancelled and we need to refund customers the original order amount. Yes we get credited back for our tickets but the profits we use as our ordinary paychecks then turn into debt that has increased as many more events are being canceled. Yes we originally had business saving money to sustain us to this point. But without the loans to make us last till this is over, and without an ETA of life going back to normal that is why we are in this difficult situation. For those of you know me, you know I'm an honest, hard working and proud man. I would never ask for help unless I had no other option and its keeping me up every night with worry and stress. Very recently my fiance and I are separating after 11 years together, it is not a mutual choice, and it is yet another major impact in my life and puts me even deeper into the mental state that I can not humanly deal with on a daily basis. For those of you that can help a man that needs help on every level. You have my upmost love and thankfulness in any way or form, whether it be financial support, prayers or just sending your love. And for those that are in the same situation as me, you will have my prayers and love. Any of these options will help me dearly and I completely understand if your not in a state to offer help. I love you all, my family and friends and those I may not know. Thank you for taking the time to read and listen.