- J
Hi, this is a fund to help me pay for top surgery.
I am in my late 30’s now but only came out as Trans a 5 years ago, in part due to growing up in a religious home and partly due to it being very uncommon and secretive when I was younger. Trans people were around at the time, but many kept their feelings and gender preference hidden for fear of judgement. If I had known a trans person in my teens or even early twenties that I could confide in about how I felt, I would have likely had the courage and strength to start the transitioning process years ago, and now I wish to make up for lost time. I would hate to reach my 40’s still feeling my body is wrong. I don’t wish to be having important surgery later in life when I can have it within the year. I want to start living my life, to be able to go swimming and do other normal activities without having to wear a T-shirt and binder to hide myself.
I am a very private person, hence why I have opted not to have a face pic on here. But know that I would deeply appreciate all the help I can get to fund this. I’ve been able to put together enough money to go part private on my transitioning, but only in part and I’m still having to rely on NHS support for a lot, and Top surgery is something I’ll never be able to fund alone.
I recently started T-Meds in January 2021 which will help my dysphoria immensely, however I was told at the clinic by multiple doctors that starting T may make my body dysphoria worse. Therefore, I would ideally like to have top surgery as soon as possible (I’ve also been told I must wait six months after starting T so mid 2021). The idea that my body can start to feel worse from T is a big concern to me, especially if I have to wait for surgery longer than necessary.
Another reason why I want Top surgery sooner rather than later is the discomfort and pain my binder causes me. I know this can be the case with other Trans and non-binary people but in my case, it is made worse from breaking my back when I was younger, and the binder sits right on the spot where the break was. Even though this was an injury from over ten years ago, my back is still a great source of pain to me and my binder makes this constantly worse. After having X-rays last December, my doctor told me my binder is directly causing further problems with my back and although they understand the psychological effect means I cannot stop wearing it, being told by a medical professional what it is doing really worried me. Because of this, being able to wear a binder less would be of great help to me but I cannot do this without surgery. It also causes a great amount of chest pain. Again, I know this is the case with others but combined with the pain in my back and my asthma I feel I can’t go on wearing it indefinitely, but also feel unable to go outside even for a short time without it. The longer I go without surgery the more I will continue to struggle with my confidence, day-to-day life and long-term health.
Thank you in advance to any help you can give me.
I am in my late 30’s now but only came out as Trans a 5 years ago, in part due to growing up in a religious home and partly due to it being very uncommon and secretive when I was younger. Trans people were around at the time, but many kept their feelings and gender preference hidden for fear of judgement. If I had known a trans person in my teens or even early twenties that I could confide in about how I felt, I would have likely had the courage and strength to start the transitioning process years ago, and now I wish to make up for lost time. I would hate to reach my 40’s still feeling my body is wrong. I don’t wish to be having important surgery later in life when I can have it within the year. I want to start living my life, to be able to go swimming and do other normal activities without having to wear a T-shirt and binder to hide myself.
I am a very private person, hence why I have opted not to have a face pic on here. But know that I would deeply appreciate all the help I can get to fund this. I’ve been able to put together enough money to go part private on my transitioning, but only in part and I’m still having to rely on NHS support for a lot, and Top surgery is something I’ll never be able to fund alone.
I recently started T-Meds in January 2021 which will help my dysphoria immensely, however I was told at the clinic by multiple doctors that starting T may make my body dysphoria worse. Therefore, I would ideally like to have top surgery as soon as possible (I’ve also been told I must wait six months after starting T so mid 2021). The idea that my body can start to feel worse from T is a big concern to me, especially if I have to wait for surgery longer than necessary.
Another reason why I want Top surgery sooner rather than later is the discomfort and pain my binder causes me. I know this can be the case with other Trans and non-binary people but in my case, it is made worse from breaking my back when I was younger, and the binder sits right on the spot where the break was. Even though this was an injury from over ten years ago, my back is still a great source of pain to me and my binder makes this constantly worse. After having X-rays last December, my doctor told me my binder is directly causing further problems with my back and although they understand the psychological effect means I cannot stop wearing it, being told by a medical professional what it is doing really worried me. Because of this, being able to wear a binder less would be of great help to me but I cannot do this without surgery. It also causes a great amount of chest pain. Again, I know this is the case with others but combined with the pain in my back and my asthma I feel I can’t go on wearing it indefinitely, but also feel unable to go outside even for a short time without it. The longer I go without surgery the more I will continue to struggle with my confidence, day-to-day life and long-term health.
Thank you in advance to any help you can give me.
Organizer and beneficiary
Steven Smith
Beneficiary