Threw my most difficult time in my life!

Hello, I’m a daughter, sister, mom, grandmother, hard worker, and caretaker. I’m usually the giver not a taker. I’ve worked over a million hours, made a lot of bad investments in people and not myself if you know what I mean. I poured so much into others cups and never fulfilled my own. Now I’m here asking for help. I had no where to go. I’m having a serious surgery soon. It’s for the best and it’s for my health. What scare me is being dependent when everyone depends on me. I can’t reschedule my surgery to save more money . I don’t have enough sick time at work . I tried reaching out to some friends to accommodate me at work while I’m sick but that’s a liability working. Living check to check to survive. Instead of thinking about this surgery and my recovery I have to worry about whether or not I going make it through all this. My faith in god is heavy and he has brought me through all things. My test in this is clear. I’m asking for you help during this difficult time in my life. Thank you, and god bless you!