The Final Chapter
Today's events. I spent most of my afternoon trying to reorganize, so when I am gone it will be easier for whoever finds me. Been on the verge of tears the entire time.
I do not. cry for me I cry for those I leave behind I should have treated you better, I should have given you more of myself.
I did not let anyone get close to me for a very, very long time as I didn't want to feel anything.
I am seriously broken I apologize for that.
For years I have waited daily for the next shoe to fall and I do not see myself pulling another miracle out of my ass, I do not have the energy this time. I have never quit and I think it is just time to fade away. I have been running on empty for far too long.
Play horsey with a child and attend another tea party eat pretend cookies and pretend cookies it will be the best times of your life.
Thanks for letting me vent.
It has been one he'll of a good ride.
Buckle up it can be a little bumpy.
God bless, and a big hug.