Tessa, Lennon and Lincoln
Donation protected
“If love could have saved you. You would have stayed with us forever.. “
On June 15th at 2:36am, my sweet Christopher Lee died from suicide. My husband took his own life. My husband was the happiest man I ever knew. ALWAYS A SMILE ON HIS FACE. ALWAYS . I never in my life met someone as funny as Christopher. He made me laugh even if I didn’t want too. Christopher was Someone who made it his mission to make everyone he ever came in contact with, laugh. My husband had untreated depression. My husband couldn’t get help because mental health is a stigma to the FAA. My husband loved his career. He loved to fly. It was his happy place, but the FAA has rules and regulations you have to follow to become and stay a pilot. If flying would have been taken away from him, I believe this would have been the outcome as well. My husband never would have done this. He did not do this. Depression did this. Depression took my husband and I can’t ever have him back. I hope by saying this, I can encourage even just one person, to realize the pain I feel, is not worth it. Chris never would have put this pain on me and the boys. Suicide is selfish. Suicide is not the answer. There is no problem in this life too big to fix. There is no issue worth this pain. Nothing. Someone told me today “ because of you and the boys we got 3 more years with Christopher we never would have gotten otherwise. “ and that makes my heart feel peace but also anger. Why couldn’t we save him ? Everyone keeps saying Christopher had been in a dark place lots of times in his life and my boys and I brought back his light. I want to believe that . But as the statement above says, all the love in this world could not save him from his own deep pain. My husband did not want to get help for depression because he knew what that meant for his career. I’m so sad. I’m so angry. Today Lennon asked me if we can go to a magic show to bring Christopher back to life. My heart is broken. I’m so broken. I don’t know how to go on. I have no idea how the boys and I will continue to live without him. The picture below I found in his phone that I never knew he took. I miss my husband. The boys miss their chris. Please pray for us. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever been through in this life. I vow to do something about this stigma. I promise to make this my life’s mission. My husbands life will matter more than ever before. even if I just am able to save ONE life along the way. 4 organizations have already been in contact with me to help. So many across the country have shared my Husbands story and I am blown away by that. If you or anyone you know is struggling please contact the suicide hotline, reach out to a doctor, to a therapist, To anyone. nothing in life is worth this pain I feel. That my boys feel , that his parents and sister feel. …. NOTHING.
Suicide hotline : 1-800-273-8255
On June 15th at 2:36am, my sweet Christopher Lee died from suicide. My husband took his own life. My husband was the happiest man I ever knew. ALWAYS A SMILE ON HIS FACE. ALWAYS . I never in my life met someone as funny as Christopher. He made me laugh even if I didn’t want too. Christopher was Someone who made it his mission to make everyone he ever came in contact with, laugh. My husband had untreated depression. My husband couldn’t get help because mental health is a stigma to the FAA. My husband loved his career. He loved to fly. It was his happy place, but the FAA has rules and regulations you have to follow to become and stay a pilot. If flying would have been taken away from him, I believe this would have been the outcome as well. My husband never would have done this. He did not do this. Depression did this. Depression took my husband and I can’t ever have him back. I hope by saying this, I can encourage even just one person, to realize the pain I feel, is not worth it. Chris never would have put this pain on me and the boys. Suicide is selfish. Suicide is not the answer. There is no problem in this life too big to fix. There is no issue worth this pain. Nothing. Someone told me today “ because of you and the boys we got 3 more years with Christopher we never would have gotten otherwise. “ and that makes my heart feel peace but also anger. Why couldn’t we save him ? Everyone keeps saying Christopher had been in a dark place lots of times in his life and my boys and I brought back his light. I want to believe that . But as the statement above says, all the love in this world could not save him from his own deep pain. My husband did not want to get help for depression because he knew what that meant for his career. I’m so sad. I’m so angry. Today Lennon asked me if we can go to a magic show to bring Christopher back to life. My heart is broken. I’m so broken. I don’t know how to go on. I have no idea how the boys and I will continue to live without him. The picture below I found in his phone that I never knew he took. I miss my husband. The boys miss their chris. Please pray for us. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever been through in this life. I vow to do something about this stigma. I promise to make this my life’s mission. My husbands life will matter more than ever before. even if I just am able to save ONE life along the way. 4 organizations have already been in contact with me to help. So many across the country have shared my Husbands story and I am blown away by that. If you or anyone you know is struggling please contact the suicide hotline, reach out to a doctor, to a therapist, To anyone. nothing in life is worth this pain I feel. That my boys feel , that his parents and sister feel. …. NOTHING.
Suicide hotline : 1-800-273-8255
Fundraising team (2)
Taylor Fischer
Organizer
Goshen, OH
Tessa Daniel
Beneficiary
Kathy Daniel
Team member