Teddie’s Procedure Expenses

Please read Teddie’s post to understand why this fundraiser is necessary. ❤️

“If you pray, please pray for me. If not, please send me positive energy today.

I don’t usually share super personal things on Facebook, but as I’ve just recently shared our exciting news of looking forward to baby Mateo, I feel the hard stuff should be shared now too. I could also use lots of support.

Yesterday I had a routine appointment for a final ultrasound. I was alone. Everything has been perfect so far. Baby measures perfect. All genetic tests are normal. No issues for me.

Then I hear the most crushing and terrifying words.

“We can’t find a heartbeat”

What do you mean you can’t find a heartbeat, I’m halfway through this pregnancy and he’s been fine?

“Doctor is going to double check but I haven’t been able to visualize any heartbeat. Just hang tight”

So I call my mom of course, because I’m alone and scared and confused and can’t breathe. They can’t find a heartbeat.

Doctor comes in. It’s quiet.

“We know this isn’t the news anyone wants to hear, but unfortunately...”

I don’t remember a lot after that. I know there are a lot of unanswered questions. How can this happen with a perfect baby and perfect pregnancy? And so far along? Less than 1% chance. Nobody knows what happened. His heart just stopped beating.

I spent 5 hours in another clinic room again yesterday, alone, as they tried to coordinate best next steps for me. Unfortunately my insurance doesn’t cover any of this type of thing because they’re not contracted with the one facility in New Mexico that provides late-term miscarriage care. So our luck is tried again as we gamble with a plan that will either be fully covered or leave us with a hospital bill in the thousands.

He had a name. He was loved and so wanted. It doesn’t make a lot of sense and that’s the hardest part about it. We will probably never get answers. But we lost our baby.

Today I’m going into the hospital and will be undergoing an operation under anesthesia. I’ve decided not to go through with labor and delivery because I don’t feel I’m emotionally strong or stable enough for that option. Since I am so far along, either way is going to be hard on my body.

So please, send all the vibes and energy and prayers our way. And if you message me please understand that I probably won’t write back but I will read your messages.”