I know most of you who read this might already know most of our story.  This is hard for me to write for more then one reason.  I've never been good at asking for help either and was the last thing I wanted to do, but I'm putting my pride aside for my baby girl and asking for help. We are going through so much as it is and the financial struggle is taking its toll on us whether we try not to let it or not. We have so many more important things to worry about I just would like the burden of financial issues to be a little less. I have not been able to work since diagnosis and her brain surgery, my main priority has been Amirah and being her primary care giver there is no way I could have a job. We have extended st Louis stays for chemo and random blood transfusions often as well as back and forth appointments to st Louis and back and when we are home she has labs, physical therapy, homebound school more transfusions and fighting being sick. Unfortunately when we got the news that the cancer has returned to her spine we got the news that we are going to be in st Louis more often as well as doing alot more aggressive chemo. If you could see the recovery she has to get over a cycle of chemo she has been having you would be thinking the same thing I am ( how could we get anymore aggressive with the chemo) her little body has been fighting so hard as it is. She is 8 now and down to 35 pounds, shes so weak she can barely stand on her own it breaks my heart to have to put her through even more. She deserves none of this, no child does. What she does deserve is no matter what to not want for anything,  I want to give her the world if I cant take this nasty disease away from her.  Even if you can spare a dollar we appreciate every little bit, I know some of you have already given to us in the past when we first got diagnosed and we appreciate that so much and couldn't of got this far without the help. When you cant work and have bills at home, gas to go back and forth to the hospital, food , medications she has to have that isnt covered by insurance it adds up quick and gets overwhelming quick. Corey has carried us when he hasnt had to and we love him and appreciate him for it he didn't have to but has. It's not been without putting stress on him and on our family as a whole though we barely have enough to make it with the coal mines going to four days and all the extra expenses we have. We have sold stuff for extra money and are trying to move to cut our house payment down I've tried to apply for social security for her to get a little extra and got denied so far. I just want to take some stress off of our family in this extremely stressful situation as it is. Also Christmas is her favorite holiday, she loves everything about it, the lights, helping me decorate, her elf sparkles coming, Santa claus, presents. She is so excited and I love seeing her eyes light up when she just talks about it so In the worst time of her life I want to give her some light and give her the best Christmas shes ever had because the next isnt promise . I know I have rambled on and probably not made sense but I really am not good at asking for help and I absolutely hate that I'm having to so I didnt really know what to say and rambled because I'm nervous typing it. If you made it to the end thank you so much for reading and thanks so much for all the help we have already received and for the help we will receive. We have an amazing support system and community.  We love you all. Most of all thank you for all the prayers and for the continued ones. I'm still praying for God to show us that miracle I know hes capable of!