Help Gabby Get Better

Hi my name is Gabby Risley. I am 17 years old and am Chronically ill. I am passionate about Art and Nature and just want to feel better so I can do the things I love. I need help with medical expenses.

The past 6 years or so my life has completely changed from what it was and what I thought it would be. I suffer from an invisible chronic illness. At first it started with just being extra tired some days headaches the next. Then I started being in pain more and more. Eventually it was Pain everywhere all the time and Migraines everyday medicine doesn't even help anymore. When I finally break down and look towards medicine for relief it makes me so nauseated I can barely talk. 6 plus years of going to doctors with no answers whatsoever. 6 plus years of feeling angry , depressed, confused and hopeless. I used to be an honors student doing pretty well never having to study tests because my memory was that good. Now I can barely remember what I did yesterday and can't recall anything from reading. I used to do both track and cross country and various other clubs. Now some days I can't even get out of bed. I was at a point where i was doing something everyday after school and still getting decent grades.My retention is so low right now. Chronic illness has destroyed my life and this is my last effort to feel better, get my life back, get myself back. I am clinically diagnosed with Lymes Disease Barilla, Cosacies Virus ,Anemia , Fibromyalgia ,and a few other things. Over the past few years my hair has started to thin and fall out, my weight fluctuates often and I keep losing weight and not being able to gain it back. I can barely eat anymore and when i do it makes me feel worse or I throw up. I feel unstable shaky and dizzy all of the time,I suffer from depersonalization and it feels as though I am watching myself through some warped lense. I get heart palpitations and my anxiety is through the roof. After dealing with this for so long I became depressed, suicidal ,and stopped believing that I had a good future or any future at all. I have anhedonia which means my brain no longer or at least right now processes dopamine or happiness chemicals. I've been depersonalized going on 4 years now and its terrible. I have to deal with all of the bad things while never fully feeling the rewards of the good things. Chronic illness has destroyed my life. My brain feels cloudy and like half of it isnt working half of the time. I feel like a stranger in my own body and I just want my old life back. I want to be able to do things, and create, and work and be around the people I love without feeling bad all the time.

Thank you so much for helping me and sharing my story