Tara’s Bounce Back

Hey y’all. I’m not great at all at asking for help, so this is taking a lot of guts and I’m really embarrassed but whatever. I’m at a point in life where to be authentic I need to be very vulnerable, so while my hands are shaking so much it’s hard to type this, and I might throw up, I lay myself bare.

At the end of June, a very, very painful thing happened that combined with my untreated depression/anxiety. Well, I had a bad mental breakdown. This is also when my stomach problems started, from top to bottom. I’m scheduled for a colonoscopy/endoscopy/biopsy on Oct. 9th. I’ve been going to therapy diligently and am on the right meds now, and it’s night and day difference. I was also diagnosed with adult ADHD, and am in the process of meds for that, and am attending weekly cognitive behavioral therapy. Due to all the meds I’m taking, I’m also keeping 100% sobriety. My mental health is improving day by day, and I am so grateful that I did not do anything foolish.

This being said, I need help. I missed some work with all this going on and had to do the Paid Leave Oregon plan, which I was approved for but unfortunately takes a month to receive pay. Due to that, I’m a month behind on all of the things. I am back at work, but I am struggling so much trying to catch up and I am fearful of not being able to pay rent and having to pay another $200 late fee. I know times are hard for many of us now so no expectations, but if anyone is able to help a little bit, the little bits add up and I don’t know how yet but I will return the kindness.

Thank you from the bottom of my soul for just reading this and sending a good vibe. I’m grateful for it all and you all, and I am really looking forward to continuing to improve and bouncing back into living like I’ve never lived before. Love you.