Surviving suicide March and moving forward

My world has been in a state of struggle since June of last year when I was hospitalized for an anaphylactic response and I lost my employment. I have held myself together and isolated myself in quiet for a while now and emotionally everything blew up on St. Patrick's day a few weeks back. Situations occurred which led to me to go to the darkest of places and I almost didnt come back. Currently - I'm getting the mental and emotional support I need and learning how to not over give of myself to the point of emotional bankruptcy. Unfortunately I also am on the verge of financial bankruptcy as well and have two months rent due, totalling 2900 with fees, 1700 needed for the lawyer, and 2 months of a title loan payment due which have me financially in the black hole. I am extremely private but always an open book so this is my current reality. I have an eviction notice and summons for court for April 15th. It has been impossible to work while being in the hospital. Getting well has been priority - unfortunately wellness comes at an extreme cost and I am afraid. I am afraid that my spiral into darkness will have cost too much and that my worst fears will come true. 
Despite all this, I have hope. Even if it is small, it is still there. These last few weeks have been some of the darkest and also some of the brightest days I have seen in my life. I am thankful to still be here and thankful for every light in my life. I love you all. Truly, all of you.