Surviving AND Thriving: The Big Transition

Hi y'all

Thank you for taking out the time to come over this way and check up on me! I wouldn't be where I am today without the backing of my community, and so it means a lot that you're here. I'm in the midst of some very big life transitions and could really use your support.

After an absolutely heartwrenching, fucking grueling year-and-a-half of graduating into the pandemic, struggling with joblessness and my deep trauma from poverty/housing insecurity being activated and having me on 105 at all times, I'm coming to terms with the fact that the universe has been dragging and blocking me for particular reasons. 65+ failed job applications along with a slew of other hardships and blockages have made me really evaluate my life, what I want from it, and what I want to do in the world. COVID has forced me to contend with the fact that my time here is finite. Very Saturn Return, eh? For the astrology folks reading this--cry with me, and send a prayer up while we're at it. The past 16 months have broken down nearly every conception I've had about myself and where/who/how I want to be. I've had to reckon with a lot. The deep-dives and crises, though, have led me to the conclusion that I want to commit to living as an artist and work for myself. I've avoided that truth like something akin to COVID because the concept of unstable income is terrifying, especially with my background, but it's what I want to do--prioritize what I love doing, prioritize my health and wellbeing, prioritize living a life I actually want to live. I want to have time to finish this novel! I want to cultivate my own schedule! I want to do work that is meaningful and that energizes me, rather than depletes me! I'm scared to death, but I think my freedom might be on the other side. And I think that I'm worth the risk.

I'm also in a state of transition geographically--I'm so excited to be getting out of Virginia and moving to Atlanta on the 20th with a close friend. I lived there for a few months in 2015 and it's been a dream to return. All this coupled with the fact that I'm going through some things re: health that may have me out of the race for a few months puts me in a unique position: one with lots of growth and goodness ahead, but also a lot of financial insecurity. I'm blessed to not be in direct crisis just yet, but I don't want to wait til I get there to reach out for help, especially because reaching out is already so hard.

All money donated will go towards helping me transition/settle in Atlanta and into a lifestlye that will finally, finally allow me to live and be well. This translates to rent, utilities and also a few amazing wellness opportunities that honestly have the potential to shift big things for me (of which I cannot afford on my own) .

If you have the capacity and desire to invest in me during this period of incubation, I'm so grateful. If you don't, I appreciate you for reading and sending good vibes!

Thank you for loving, seeing and supporting me. It means everything.