Hi there, thank you for taking the time to read my story. My name is Janet and I've hesitated to do this, but in all the truth is, This is what I have, nowhere, no one, and no support to sustain my life.

A couple of months ago I was refused by Ontario Works here in Ontario, So they denied me, then I corrected their error and they grant me $700 a month. I had no choice but to take my CPP early because I could not make ends meet. That's $357 a month, and the government looks at that as additional income so they take that off that $700 and that's what I'm left with. Yes, I am in a terrible terrible valley at this stage of the game, I'm 61 years old and just found out that I can no longer work and provide for myself. I've lived my whole life with a few conditions which created nothing but a havoc in my life, a very chaotic and a very emotional time, not understanding why I behaved the way I did, or the off the wall decisions I made along the way.....and very very misunderstood.

My whole entire life of not been able to cradle my child when he was just a tiny infant, function in the workplace, function in friendships and function in family. I don't need to go on with all the examples, but truly believe me when I say, it has been a horrendous and stressful life. But the kicker in all of this, and probably after 50 years of living that way, only to realize it in the past few months, to fully understand why I behaved the way I did, why I felt the way that I did, never understanding how to put things into words. I went to three doctors and all the doctors said you are not serious enough to be put on medicine So did not take me as a patient. so I just carried on in life... and then all of a sudden all these things started to coming to light to me, and I could fully understand my whole life and why it was the way it was. The hardest thing And the kicker, is nobody said anything to me, nobody tried to talk to me, my therapist that I had for 20 years or so, mentioned it to me but then dropped it. Everybody just leaves me. I've never felt so let down and so neglected from all the people that were supposed to care about me. And because I wasn't cared for they don't want nothing to do with me, I may be a little too much, maybe I'm too sensitive, maybe they don't understand what I found out. And having these conditions breaks my heart for anybody else to be dealing what I've dealt with. So the reason the reason why I'm going on this Gofundme page because I went on the Internet already, and laid it right out and told people what I am going thru.? yes , I did receive a lot of kind words , but no suggestions that I hadn't done myself already. I keep asking the question oner and over again, but nobody has the answer. Question is how do I live?, every door closed, every resource told me it wasn't available to me. The funds that I may receive, I will use it to survive... I'm all alone in this world, no family no friends no government... It breaks my heart I've never ever felt so alone. And now knowing these conditions I'm finding it even more difficult Every day is more difficult. When I told my doctor that I'm on the far right of the spectrum And he said to me the best thing I can do is make you comfortable, and on top of having those wonderful conditions, that affect my everyday waking minute of my life, you have no idea of the stress that I'm under because I have no money...and cannot provide for myself. $700 in 2026 I don't know how anybody would be able to provide for themselves My rent is more than double that...but it still hurts my heart that nobody cared about me enough to sit down and ask me questions or to explain my behavior, I guess it's just easier for everybody to leave me. So at 61 years old I'm all by myself, My family abandoned me, my son abandoned me, My friends abandoned me, The government abandoned me... The only one who hasn't is our Lord Jesus Christ our Father.

This is my story, from my heart to yours. If there is anyway someone could help me out, I'd be most grateful !!

Janet