Surgery Recovery Help, Please!

Since I was about ten years old, large fibroid tumors grew in my abdomen and reproductive organs. When I was 20 years old, a 28cm fibroid ruptured in my abdomen and I went into septic shock and almost died. After a life-saving surgery and hysterectomy at 23 years old, I struggled with my weight loss, body image and felt very dysmorphic. My whole life people fat shamed me when I was sick and had a bad luck with medical issues and it has been a struggle to maintain self esteem and love myself even when others think I look like a "freak" but I push through for myself and my health.

In an attempt to heal, in 2010 I started to cut out toxic things from my life. I quit smoking and started on a long journey to better health with a goal of a healthy, strong body. I was always jealous of others with seemingly "normal" bodies, and while I have always loved myself and know that I am beautiful on the inside, I have always worked hard with the dream in mind to have someday my belly, which has been a part of my life for decades, could be removed. After decades of depression from losing my ability to have children, feel like a normal person or woman, and body dismorphia I am struggiling to just feel like my body is not deformed, mishapen and a surgical quilt. Surgeons told me time and time again that I needed to lose more weight or that they didn't feel comfortable operating because of my previous surgeries. I felt sad, lost and as if all of my lifestyle changes to be healthy were for nothing. Nobody seemed to be able to help me, and it seemed so out of my reach.

After decades of work to get healthy, eat right and get my body healthy the end goal was to remove the bell and feel what life would be like with a body that was more like everyone elses. I cried for years, wanting surgery to remove the flaps of skin that remain like the ruins of my old body and scars from the previous life saving surgeries. After many doctors telling me no, I finally found a surgeon who will do the surgery and it is set for Aug 5!

However, I need your help! I am not one to ever ask for help, but the cost of this surgery and the care required have pushed my pockets to the limit. I am asking for all of my family, friends and anyone who I have touched in this world at any time to please help me out to make this recovery and new opportunity at having a "normal" body. I have wept and begged the universe for so long for this possibility. I really need your support and would appreciate anything you can possibly spare to help me get through this. I am reaching out for support to reach this goal. The total surgery has cost me over $30,000 so I am asking for support to recover from the loans I had to take, credit I have used and savings I have drained for this opportunity for myself. Can you please help me recover?

I am so excited at the opportunity to live this life without feeling deformed and depressed from the unfortunate medical tragedy I have suffered with for so long. I appreciate your support and love to get through this recovery and have a new opportunity for my life. The photo shown is the before and after photos of my weightloss surgery in 2013, 10 years ago and was a pivotal point in my weightloss journey that led me to this moment of opportunity in my life now.

Thank you for reading about my life, journey and why I need your help.

I wish you and your families, happiness and health.

Thank you for the support, now and forever.