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On March 4th I had distal bicep surgery. This is the surgery to reattach my bicep tendon to my forearm as it was torn loose cutting limbs out of a tree. Before the surgery was done I spoke with the surgeon and he went over some of the processes of the surgery. Some of the risks. I say some of the risks because one of the risk was left out. This was a risk that would have really changed what I thought about having the surgery for at least would have insisted on more invasive procedure that insured I came out whole. After surgery I noticed my left thumb and fingers wouldn't move very well and I figured they were basically part of the surgery as well as the half cast may have been put on in a manner to prevent me from moving a lot while the bicep tendon healed. After 2 weeks they removed the half cast. This is where the situation I'm in now showed its head. During the surgery they damaged my radial nerve. Which left me with radial nerve palsy in my left hand. My wrist functions but my hand won't open the way it should. I cannot do a thumbs up, I can't open my hand to grab something. My whole plan was to play music once I came out of the surgery to support myself because though I would not be able to use my arm much I could play the guitar and sing in a local town and use that as some means of support. This is left me without the ability to do my electrical work, without the ability to play guitar, and without the ability to ride my motorcycle. My guitar and my motorcycle or two of the things that are avenues for an outlet of depression frustration and give me a great deal of joy. At my appointment day before yesterday, the surgeon told me that not only would it not be better in the two weeks that the initial nurse who took my cast off said it would be, but it could take anywhere from 3:00 to 6 months to recover and people do recover and most cases. He was very adamant about most cases to cover himself in case it didn't get better. Yes I started me a GoFundMe page. Everyone who has donated on my page I have a list and if I get better or when I get better or if there's a way up until then that I can repay in any way I am going to do that. I don't want to hand out I just want to hand up. Some people have told me don't worry about it. Well trust me I do. I'm not a mooch. The bills still come in regardless of the condition of my hand. I have doctor's appointments it seems like almost every day between heart kidneys and now this hand and arm. If you look down your nose at me because I started my own GoFundMe page just ask yourself what would you do. I put a disability claim in that I do not want and know it's going to take a long time. I don't want to be on disability I want to work. I've tried to sell things but people just aren't buying stuff right now. I have borrowed money against almost everything I own. My current health issue has lowered my credit to the point that I can't borrow on my house or I would. The stress is running my blood pressure sky high. This whole situation is exacerbating every other issue that I'm having with myself. I'm trying to teach myself how to play the guitar laying flat with a glass. It's not going the best but I am making a little progress. I wanted to update what my GoFundMe page was in the beginning because initially I just knew I would be down for a little bit but not this down. I put $6,000 because with a high limit at least there would be room for whatever. That was done before the surgery. Now that this has risen it's hard to figure everything out. I'm not sitting waiting for everybody to send me money. I'm trying to figure out ways to make money any way I can. Anything is greatly appreciated and I will put your name on my list and find a way to repay you. Thank you. Wolf