Support TRP's Journey to Health and Stability

So, about 10 months ago I was injured whilst moving for a new job. Though I thought the injury was rather minor, it turned out to be anything but, as the real injury was an infection that was started deep in the muscle of my leg that was unbeknownst to me highly resistant to antibiotics. Whilst I thought at the time that it was being treated, the drugs I was taking were doing nothing more than holding it in check until the treatment cycle expired. Once that happened it just got worse, and worse.

I'd never had a tendon severed in such a way before, so I figured the pain I was feeling was normal for such an injury. After all, I'd went through the course of anti biotics, so it can't be an infection.

Well, after a month, and coming to realize that this was indeed an infection after taking a closer look at the closed up wound, and seeing what looked to be a white substance under neath stretching the wound out I cut the surface of the skin that had closed up, only to have mountains of puss, and blood that smelled like excrement shoot out of my leg.

So began my long journey of recovery, which saw me near death, in a chemically induced coma, a month of treatment, and me surviving, if just barely.

It's now been 8 months since I was released from hospital, and I wish I could say I was back to my old self, but I'm nowhere near.

I spent close to 2 months recovering. All I wanted to do was get back to work, but all I could do was rest. Walking made me light headed, and dizzy to the point of tunnel vision.

That said there's no rest for the weary, so I sat down, figured out what kind of work I could now do, and moved someplace I could do it. My chosen profession that I used to do when I was younger, and was returning to after my current position of near 20 years ended is one that is physically beyond me now. The work I am doing now is the only work I can reliably do.

I've come a long way, and since returning to work less than 2 months after almost dying I've nearly doubled what I was able to earn starting in November of last year. I've done all I am able to do, given my current state, and the limitations imposed.

I've recovered some, but no where near as much as I would have hoped.

I'm currently suffering PSS. Post sepsis syndrome. Basically the name for what are the after affects of suffering a serious bout of septic shock, which damages every system, and organ in your body. I also have the added misfortune of having also suffered a heart attack from this, which only adds to the difficulty of more or less everything I do. 40% of people who suffer the severity of this illness that I did don't live more than 5 years after the fact. I've done all I can, but have reached a plateau of sorts in regards to my recovery. A point where returns have diminished to such an extent that any real improvement that means anything is not a matter of months, but a matter of years, or never.

Well, I don't have years to wait.

Medical bills have impoverished me.

Not only that, but the only work I'm capable of doing has dropped off a cliff, which turns out to be normal where I am, and part of the seasonal change. I can do nothing about that, except keep grinding away doing as much as I am able, which is about a third of what I used to be able to do with ease, but now that third feels far harder.

On top of that my main focus the past 6 months has just been working, and sleeping. Trying to rebuild my body, and stamina through whatever means I can, but progress has slowed, and now stalled. Even worse, thanks to business dropping off a cliff I'm making half of what I was a month ago.

Where I was getting close to breaking even on a monthly basis, meaning reaching a point where I was able to make enough to no longer lose money, now I'm losing so much that if I don't find some way to slow the bleed I'm be homeless in just a couple months time. Meanwhile the amount I'm able to work has not changed in quite some time, but what I can earn in that period of time has dropped to near nothing.

In truth I am disabled, and should be on disability, but when I am "near to" breaking even on a monthly basis I'm making "just enough" to not qualify, as the amount you must make to get disability is so absurdly low that you'd have to be homeless to qualify.

Needless to say this is not desirable. Mainly because it would likely kill me given my current health, and also because I will work myself literally to death to make sure such does not happen.

However, I find myself in sort of a trap at this present time that I cannot escape on my own.

I've been so focused on working more, and more, improving my health to the point where I can be breaking even, and even make enough to start saving again that I haven't really had the time, or energy to do anything else. That's how bad a state I'm in. It's only recently within the past month that I've found the energy to do anything beyond working, and that's only because business has slowed.

Slowed to such an extent that it's not just a little money that I'm losing, but a lot.

Hence, I must find some way to reduce my expenses to such an extent that I can weather this storm, make it through the slow season doing the only work I am able to do, be it in a limited fashion, and continue making whatever progress I can to improve my health, and well being.

That won't happen where I currently live, as it is a very expensive, by the week sort of temporary housing. I've tried of late finding something else that's cheaper, but because of the 100k plus I still owe in medical bills my credit went from being perfect, to in the dumper, and you can't rent anywhere here with credit like that.

I'm also on several medications that are a must have, and further drain my finances.

So, being the problem solver I am there is only one solution, which is to reduce my living expenses to such an extent that I can weather this current storm until business picks back up in mid August, early September.

I already know how I will do this, but I need some help to do it.

I have already found the solution, which is to purchase an RV for very cheap, fix it up, and then live in until my health, and finances are more in order. It's either this, or I end up on the street, where I won't long survive.

This situation is the exact type of situation that disability exists, but the truth is I wouldn't survive long enough to get it, thanks to the scum, and lying grifters who game the system. It is those who receive disability, most of which do not deserve it, and should not actually be on it that have made qualifying such a difficult task. I've explored this option, and spoken to lawyers who specialize in such, and while they offered to take my case, they also informed me that it would take 1 to 2 years. During this time I would not be allowed to make more than X amount. An amount which I could not, and would never be able to live on.

In turn, it might be years before I can rent even a cheap apartment again, and given how much I am currently able to do, and how little I'm recovering I may never be able to work enough to cover the long term expenses of a normal, standard live every again.

However, if I purchase an RV cheap, fix it up with my years of experience in mechanics, and contracting I can have a cozy home that will cost me no more than the cost of a parking space with sewer, and electric hook up, which is quite cheap compared to standard rent. The cost of living for such is far less than what I pay now, and would allow me the time, and breathing room to either continue my recovery, or barring that apply for, and get the disability I may need if I don't recover further.

It should not be so difficult to qualify, and receive disability when one has went through what I went through, but thanks to so many gaming the system, and receiving such when they should not it has now become near impossible to receive any such benefits unless you are happy to live in a box for a couple years. I you even can.

Being new to the work I'm doing now, and barely 7 months into it I had no idea there was such a seasonal slow down as the norm for such. I've been working hard, and will continue to work as hard as I can, but the work won't be there again until mid Aug, early Sept, and I cannot survive until then on what work I'm able to get, and do. I can afford a very cheap, fixer upper RV, which I can then make livable until things pick up. If I wait much longer though I won't even be able to do that, and without some help I can't even do that.

Hence why I have created this gofundme. Many a person asks for aid without any intent, or even proof that they will use it to improve their lot. Meanwhile all I wish to do is survive long enough to help my fellow man by giving him the tools of the mind to survive in this ever more hostile world.

If you folks reading this can see your way clear to providing me whatever aid you possibly can it wold not only be greatly appreciated, but put to good use.

I wasn't sure I'd live this long, and I don't know how much longer I have, but I have no intention of giving up, and will do whatever I must to survive, and leave behind a legacy that will help future generations thrive, but I can't do that given my current state without at least some aid.

So, if you could see clear to making a donation it will allow me to put myself in a position where I can actually escape the trap I'm currently in, rebuild my finances, maybe rebuild my health at a faster pace, as I won't have to push myself as much as I am now just to survive, and I'll have a lot more options.

It would also enable me to create content again, and start working on my book, which I wish to publish as a free audio book in the form of weekly chapter releases, but cannot now do because of the demands on my time, and energy. Even now writing this story is causing my heart to hurt.

It's difficult for me to ask you all for further aid, but it's not for nothing, nor will it be going to someone who won't use it as a hand up.

I'm doing all I can, but sometimes we need a little help from our fellow man. I've spent many years doing all I can to try and help my fellow man to improve their lives, without asking for anything in return. What I'm asking for now is some aid so that I can continue doing such. Nothing more, nothing less. If you can bring yourself to do such I would be forever grateful. If not that's fine to, as not everyone can.

Either way I will keep doing what I can.

Thanks for reading my story, and I wish you well in your current endeavors.

Yours truly,

TRP