Support Tina's Urgent Medical Care

I don’t know how to write this, I’m a mentally and physically exhausted wreck right now. It feels like my heart has been pulled out of my chest through my throat and stomped on.

Rasputin, aka Tina Las Vegas aka, Tina and I need your help. 

She had to visit two emergency vets today. 

She has an upper respiratory infection, a heart murmur, her heart is enlarged. 

She lost function of her limbs earlier, collapsing in the kitchen.

I started screaming. 

They are keeping her hospitalized to find out more and to help her get her strength back, she hasn’t been eating because she can’t smell anything due to the upper respiratory infection.

I don’t have any thing cool to sell. 

I make less than $22/hr as a mental health counselor. 

I don’t have an eloquent way to say it, 

I just need your help with paying for Tina’s care.

If you know me you know Tina is my entire heart. Please understand how much this means to me.

Edit: this morning, the doctor called. Tina was not getting any better. I made the painful decision to put Tina down. 

Rest in Power, My Queen of Darkness. 

I adopted Rasputin (aka Tina) in 2010. She ran right up to my doc martens and started climbing and chewing the laces and I knew she was the one. The adoption place said she was ‘a bit of a handful’, and I knew we’d go together like peas and carrots. 

After changing her original name- SEAHORSE, to a proper mystical powerful name like Rasputin, she met and exceeded everything I thought a fur sidekick could be. 

14 and a half years. She was with me through a suicide attempt, countless heartbreaks, years of abuse, too many apartments to count, me trying to get sober, me staying sober. She went through hell and back with me. She would sleep on my head and lick my forehead and I knew everything would be okay. 

I cannot express how heartbroken I am to have to lose the thing I love most in this world. She gave me everything and more, she is part of my identity. 

She and I both knew it was time to call it, and after the nurse put her down I picked up her tiny body and collapsed on the floor, sobbing like an animal myself. I couldn’t let her hurt anymore. When we made eye contact I knew she had held on for me and I said ‘I love you, I love you, I love you’ and kissed her forehead like I have done every day for many, many years. If you ever met her you knew she was a sassy food stealing diva, just like momma raised her. She was the best nap partner, and had the loudest purr I’ve ever witnessed. 

I love you Rasputin. 

Until everything else is just dust. 

You’ll always be my girl.