Support Shane's (Anathema) Health & Recovery Jan & Feb

Dear Friends and MDD Community,

I am reaching out to you, the community that I consider family, for financial support with my health issues, and the strains they have put on me. Over the past months, I have been silently battling severe health issues that have drained me financially, physically, and emotionally. I survive on $950 a month. After rent, utilities, phone/internet & the costs of running the Modern Day Debate Discord Server I am only left with around $150.00 for food and any other expenses I might have. I absolutely don't ever have extra funds for "luxuries." For me, luxury is the occasional fast food meal from Burger King. This is, to put it mildly, completely humiliating having to ask others for help with this as I have been fortunate up until recently to lead a life where I have always been the one to support my friends & loved ones in their times of need so this is completely foreign territory for me. Many of you have told me not to feel this way, and I appreciate that, but I just cannot help it. There have been times when I have considered giving up, and quitting treatment simply so as not to have to bother any of you fine people with my issues because it also keeps me up at night, and then if I am unable to raise the funds I need in a timely manner & fall behind on treatment I just stress out even more, and panic so much that I literally cannot sleep, and my quality of life just falls to zero.

I humbly request your support to cover essential expenses like medical bills, food, transportation, and the costs of treatments and medications at this most challenging time.

I feel I should also share a little bit of my life with you all that brought me to this point in my life even though it is something I do NOT like talking about ever because of how painful the memories are to me. Some years back I was violently attacked by a man who was later found guilty of horrendous crimes against women, and causing the death of 2 here in Michigan, and got 2 life sentences for it. As a result of that attack, I lost my Spleen and suffered nerve damage in my neck and lower back. The doctors told me then that my Liver & Kidneys would have to start working overtime to make up for a lack of having a spleen, and that I needed to take care of my body because of this. I fell into a horrible depression and started drinking, and that just destroyed my Liver, Pancreas, and gallbladder and sent me to the ICU 3 times now. As a result of all these things my Liver is damaged beyond full repair, as well as my Pancreas. I haven’t had a drink in years as the doctors informed me it would certainly kill me if I continued.

What began as an emergency gallbladder surgery last year has spiraled into a series of complications. With a history of compromised immunity since losing my spleen due to a violent attack on my body, my liver, kidneys, and pancreas have been under tremendous strain. Recently, I faced a critical health crisis, resulting in an 8-day ICU stay and a diagnosis of Chronic Pancreatitis, a near-failing liver, and a mass growing on my pancreas, as well as multiple other hospital, stays due to health complications like blood clots, nerve damage in my back and hands, and the symptoms of a heart attack recently relating to the blood clots, and bad circulation because of my Liver damage. As of January 2025, the mass growing on my Pancreas has shrunk (~5cm) below half its original size which is AMAZING news, and I am on track to be able to conclude my Liver treatment after March 12th as long as I stay on schedule these next two months, and everything goes as planned, and hoped for. I went to my doctor's appointments on the 13th of January and am now 1 week behind on my treatment for January as of writing this, so any donations will be greatly appreciated so that I can get back on track, and hopefully get healthy, and put this chapter of my life behind me! (Remember it takes a minimum of 4 – 7 days from the time of donation for me to receive it in my bank account through GoFundMe. It is NOT instant like other means of donation)

I have set a goal of $2,700.00 to cover the costs for January through March of 2025, ( Jan 15th - Feb 11th & Feb 12th - March 12th) and hopefully whatever remaining costs I have after the conclusion of my Liver treatment in March which is the much cheaper of the two (Chronic Pancreatitis with a large Pseudo cyst growing on the Pancreas & Liver Disease). Through these few GoFundMe campaigns, I have always set a goal LOWER than my actual needs simply because I try and make the bare minimum work for me, and make it easier for you all to help me reach that goal. Some months this has resulted in me barely eating because of that decision.

I am deeply grateful to those of you who have supported me throughout this ordeal, and for taking the time to reach out to me with kind words of support or just to see how I am doing in general. You know who you are, and you’re the best! You all are the reason I’ve been able to keep my spirits up in my darkest moments. I especially am so grateful to Hannah (Athena on the MDD Discord) and my incredible MDD Discord and YouTube Moderation Team/Family for keeping the ship afloat in my absence, and also for your never-ending well of support, and encouragement. Your kindness has been my strength, and I look forward to rejoining our daily community activities (YouTube & The Discord) once I am back to feeling 100%.

Please consider supporting my fight by donating or sharing this campaign. My DMs are open for any questions or support you wish to offer (Username: Anathemata).

With my deepest gratitude,

Shane (Anathema) - MDD Head Mod & MDD Discord Founder / Server Owner