Hello, I'm Sachi!

For a long time in my life, I've functioned independently and pushed through everything on my own, but for once, I want to be brave enough to be willing to get help in my journey of growth.

I've lived in a toxic environment for all of my life; I had to basically raise myself emotionally growing up, and due to that, I feel very behind compared to my peers, even though I am an adult by age. I have never been allowed to go to therapy, so I couldn't ever reach out for help or figure out why I function the way I do. I've fought with every ounce of my soul to make sure I turn out kind, and thankfully, I've succeeded in that. But due to how life has treated me, I've had every single dream and passion I wanted to pursue ripped out of my hands by force, and that has burned me out beyond belief, especially after being forced into a major I didn't want to pursue and tried for 3 consecutive years to avoid. I also haven't been allowed a job so sadly I couldn't save money for myself to find my own way out.

I am not comfortable enough to go into detail about my situation yet because I haven't even allowed myself to process any of it properly yet. But my only choice right now is silently leaving behind everything I know, which will be another emotionally taxing thing I need to do for myself, but I know somewhere, somehow, it has to be better for me in the future. I'm still continuing to try to chase the one dream I have left currently, which is to become a VTuber. I've done anything in my power to grow despite dealing with this all on the daily. My filming time is limited to the few hours a day I get alone, and I still try to push out content because I want this to work for me so badly. I want to use my struggles to provide everyone a space where they can see no matter what you deal with, you can turn out strong.

But now, in order to do that, I feel that finally being in a safe environment where I can work freely and exist in peace and finally feel everything I've shut away for 22 years and start learning to be an adult would benefit me greatly. All of the money earned will be going to me trying to figure out how to get a place to live and things needed for the place to kickstart my life.

Thank you for reading. I'm trying my best to not let my over-independence take hold of me now and to remember it's okay to ask for help.