Hello, my name is Patricia Saint Marie, and I have been trying to handle things by myself because I just couldn't bring myself to ask for help! However now I have pushed my pride aside, I am loosing everything, and there is no one I know that I can ask for help. For twenty two years I have been raising my special needs granddaughter with the help of adoption funds that stopped in October 2023, when she turned twenty one. I am thankful that I was able to save some money because my granddaughter has no income, but as of October of 2024 My savings ran out! I will be seventy eight on October 27th, and I am on disability trying to take care of my granddaughter, bills, etc. It has gotten so bad I gave up pretty much everything, and now my credit is in the toilet after trying relief programs. I have my granddaughter, and pets who needed a home when I was able to provide for us. I am looking for work, but it hasn't gone anywhere, and I am living off of disability. I can't take care of our needs, and it has become extremely hard trying to survive. Mentally, and emotionally I am a mess, and don't know what to do so here I am asking for help to get back on track so I can continue to provide for my granddaughter. After a couple of years of trying I recently got conservatorship for her so that can handle things that she cannot! I am feeling hopeless, and afraid that there will be no one to be here for her. I want to make sure she will be safe, and her needs will be met, but I can't seem to function because of everything I am trying my best to deal with! If anyone out there has a job they can give me I'll take it, but as of now I have nothing to depend on except for the SSI I get monthly, which honestly don't help much! My granddaughter Lyric is a talented artist who doesn't know her worth. I would like to get her back in school to take classes that could set her up for a career in Digital Arts/ Media Arts. I was determined to do what needed to be done for her to graduate high school, and she did in April of 2023 at age twenty one. Lyric has disabilities that has and will continue to hinder her growth, and I want to help shape her life, and help her become as independent as possible! I am behind with everything, don't know how long this will go on, but I do know that I feel broken, and it has stressed me out so much I can't think straight, I just can't get myself out of this rut! It seems the closer I get to God the more obstacles I face. I am asking for help, I just can't take it any longer I feel like I am at a point of no return. I have no one it's just me, and Lyric against the world, and I can't go on like this! I am reaching out for help, I use to have a life, and then Lyric was born, and has been with me since she was three months old, I was fifty five. Now here I am going on seventy eight, and I am scared to death of what could happen if I don't come out of this serious rut that I have gotten myself in.