Help Amy save her home from a terrible divorce judgment

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Please help me. I did something so stupid. I represented myself in my divorce thinking justice would prevail and that my former best friend would be fair and honest. Geez, was I wrong! Hello, my name is Amy, There was a time I was known as Amy Bugbee, and for more than 22 years I created and co-created many projects with my former partner. We published crazy books and comics, created events, and more. As time went on, I became more and more of a caregiver for my husband, and eventually was forced to take jobs outside of our projects. I found some jobs I really loved, and I was able in 2017 to buy a little house in Portland Oregon. I encouraged my former mister to focus on art because he was a lot nicer when he was making art. However he kept investing in various business endeavors, but never made the money back on them. He spent the mortgage money on them, but they had no return, just half finished projects and items he was unwilling to go out and try to sell. He did an art show, but decided at the last minute nothing was for sale or was thousands of dollars. Things got really weird. Meanwhile we got behind on bills, way behind. On January 9, 2019, he left in the middle of the night. I was more than $8,000 behind on the mortgage. I worked hard to persevere and keep the house, and I did! Since January 2019, I have maintained my home, without a dollar from my former mister. Instead of disappearing entirely, he made himself known in various cyber attacks and defaming posts made on the internet. He told terrible lies about me that made finding work difficult, he attacked my websites, I lost 3 websites for my vanilla business over the years, and a website for an organization I was volunteering with. I've lost social media accounts, and a google drive with all of my writing and photos on it. The cyber attacks on my phone and social accounts made my career as a marketing person virtually impossible, I could not risk losing a company's social media to my unpredictable former partner. It got really hard. I started doing odd jobs and dog sitting to keep the lights on. I felt paralyzed by the attacks, never feeling like I had any privacy, friends who appeared on my social media feed were subject to threats and attacks so I stopped posting most people. I call it my "half-life" era. Two months after my husband left, I loaded a moving pod with all of the merchandise, art, archives, valuable sewing machines and much more. I filed for divorce in December 2019, and asked my former mister where to forward the papers, he eluded me for more than a year. I was finally granted "alternative service" meaning emailing him was sufficient for the court. a month later I was contacted by an attorney claiming to represent him. For another year and a half to two years he postponed and continued every trial assignment call. He postponed through two or three other judges until he got the judge he wanted. The judge who told me he had "never had an email as part of a divorce", who knew nothing of the value of digital properties. The trial took 4 months between opening and closing, and then another six months for the judgement. The judgement did not value the pod contents whatsoever, the judgement didn't mention any of my lost works and archives and digital properties, but it did award my former husband $40,000 from my house, and gave his attorney an additional $10 for his bill. It was shocking! I owed someone money for a house I bought, and I kept and cared for for more than five years after he left. A house that when he left we had no equity in and as stated was $8k behind on payments. I gave myself a year to figure out how to pay this $50,000, it's has been growing at 9% interest too! A few months ago I was served with papers charging me with contempt, my husband asking the court to put me in jail, charge me $500 a day, and damages and lawyer fees and probation, as well as asking for a sheriff sale of my home to get that $50k. A new judge ruled the contempt charges were false and I was found Not Guilty. However, she said the law in clear and the sheriff sale is moving forward. It was a terrifying few months, feeling like I couldn't plan for the future in case I was locked up, but hardest of all was realizing the person I spent two decades with wanted me jailed. I avoided alerting the authorities about his cyber attacks because I didn't want to risk him being jailed or imprisoned. Yes, I should have asked for help here two years ago, when I only needed $5,000 for a good attorney, but now I owe $50k more than that. I am asking people to buy a DIY vanilla extract kit at Worlds Greatest Vanilla , or to buy my new book "Be The Orca: A Menopause Manifesto" at Be The Orca dot org , or though your favorite e-book service, I am even offering "Amy Mutual Funds" a 3-year certificate with 6% interest (you can email me at amyeirstocky at gmail dot com for this option), but I am asking here simply for help. I love my little home, and I love living in Portland. It has taken a while, but I am getting on my feet again, I have a budding new career as a stage hand, and I may even be union bound, but that doesn't save my house today. I have tried to make my home a place of help and comfort for everyone who enters here, I try to celebrate the blooming tree in my yard, and my sweet turtle Myrtle's love of art, and I try to be a good friend to people around me. Please help me continue to do this in my little home on the dead end. Personally I have gone through deep trauma therapy, and I continue to go through therapy to help me grow and learn to have better relationships. The embarrassment of being a "battered woman" is deep. No modern, capable woman wants to admit such a terrible thing. It feels shameful to admit, which is what keeps the cycle going. But, I admit it now, I loved my husband deeply, but today I am not sure he was ever capable of love. Today, I look back at some of the things I put up with, and I really cannot fathom those choices, but I am more forgiving of myself these days, and the future looks so bright, and I have wonderful people in my life today and I am so thankful for that. Please help me stay housed, stay in my home, and finally close this dark chapter in my life. THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH!