EDIT: There is a severe stalking and physical harassment situation in my life playing out that has escalated. I now need to move again urgently so the nature of this fundraiser is changing, if you are aware of my online socials, please read there for updates. I need help. Please call it out too.

I am needing help and care to have my rent at the least covered for the next few months. I moved recently and had to put down more than a few thousand on first, last, and a deposit on the place. I had and am still dealing with a dire situation with my sister dying of liver failure and being medically abused in a human rights violation and had to use my remaining money to go see her. I am not in the financial position I need to be in to stabilize my life quickly along with the terror, trauma, and grief surrounding it among other things. I am trying to find meaningful employment ASAP, but I did just move and travel across states to see my sister, so I have to start over in my job prospects (and my belongings are still stranded in another state, so I have to purchase vital necessities all over again because I had to give up altogether on retrieving them due to the shipment or travel costs).

The job market is very difficult right now, and I am needing even just a window to try to process the trauma of what is happening and coming through my life right now.

If you can see and hear me and feel my heart, please know I love you and thank you for everything if you can help even a little. This is something I want to never have to keep happening again and I'm trying so hard but I've been stranded with so many problems. I did not even get to use the money I had in my savings when I wanted the way I needed more than 6 months ago because I was stuck with an abusive roommate and landlord who sapped my time and energy dangerously and lashed out if I tried to even take time to find work and not entertain them. They kept me in a temp housing situation for months, so I could never even purchase the things I needed like a proper desk setup to work without injuring my body to even try other avenues of employment online as a skilled artist, I never could work very long without injuring my hands or back. Because they were my landlord, my housing was in jeopardy if I didn't comply with their unreasonable whims, including expecting me to overpay for rent and do chores around the property. The space was also always renting out the other rooms to temporary stays, so there was never any way to really be in a quiet, non-unpredictable environment to finish what I needed to do.

I tried to find housing ASAP and looked as much as I could through my time there, but the bars to moving were so difficult to get around. I was only able to do it at the last minute of my need to stabilize my situation around the time my sister then began declining rapidly, so there was no pull of the punches.

The situation has been so disgusting and disturbing to me.

Thank you if you can hear me. I promise I am full force focusing on just trying to stabilize my life and I am finally living in my own studio space so I can actually focus and get what I need done to flourish in a way I never had a window to before. Thank you again.