I can't believe I'm doing this. I'm not the person that asks for help, I'm the one that offers help. I'm not the one that starts a fundraiser , I'm the person that donates to them. I have been unemployed for quite awhile, but making ends meet through a combination of my savings, photography side gigs, and odd jobs, making enough to pay my rent and bills, while still getting interviews for good jobs, waiting for that Goldilocks offer that was right around the corner. But then nothing happens. Unemployment benefits were reluctantly applied for and approved, but due to a clerical error that I made, I still have not received any benefits. Appeals were filed, and it was all working out, I would start getting payments soon, help was right around the corner. But a week ago I learned there would be no benefits payout for over 4 months of unemployment. Jobs have been applied for, I have been through a revolving door of interviews for months, I have even tried temp agencies and offers of seasonal employment, only for it to fizzle out. But there would be something else coming up, right around the corner. A couple more good paying photo gigs were obtained. And then, finally, I was offered a job, a good job, I had multiple interviews, did the mandatory background check, went through an orientation, it was the most "For Sure" deal yet. It was originally starting within a week, then two weeks, right around the corner. Yesterday, both photo gigs were cancelled. Then today, 10/24, I was informed the job wouldn't be starting until 11/18, at the soonest, with no explanantion. It was then that I realized, everything that was "For Sure", wasn't. And as a result, I have overextended myself, and my finances, beyond all of my safeguards, and I can't make it another month without being evicted from my place, likely within the next 10 days. And if I somehow keep my place, electricity and internet will be shut off, car insurance cancelled, bank account closed. I am dumbfounded that this is where I am, and part of me refuses to accept it. There has always been something right around the corner. Today I accept the fact, there are no more corners.

So it is with the greatest of humility that I am asking for help from my friends, family, and associates. I am asking for a months' worth of of goodwill, and some more to get myself out of the red. My pride, DIY mindset, and "get it done" attitude have rarely allowed for myself to ask for help, or even admit that I needed help, but today, the reality hit me. I can't be safe, secure, and healthy without help.

I need help.

I appreciate any and all donations, no matter how big or small.

Thanks to everyone.