I Don't Feel Safe Here - Need Help Moving

Long story short, I can't stay in the US anymore.

Reason ? I don't feel safe.

After 'his' election this time, I had an interaction that pushed me over the edge. This time feels different than the last time. I just don't feel safe. I honestly fear for my safety going forward. I am headed to Albania to set up shop for a while. We'll see where I go from there. I didn't expect to feel this way. I had other plans. This is NOT what I needed. I was still in recovery from the knee injury, and trying to put my life back together. I had just re-launched my tangotopics.com website and then this noise happens. FFS!

So I decided that I can sell a few things, buy a plane ticket, get my passport and get out. I'm not sticking around this time for the show. But this time, this time feels very different. The racism against people like me, is going to be far worse. I honestly fear for my life this time.

Back Story:

In 2016, I came back from the EU and had been back for about 3 weeks. I had been riding a crosstown bus in Boston nearly every day since the election. Every day since then the mood changed. You get to see the same faces on the bus every day, so you sort of feel where they're at. That day, the bus go really crowded with unfamiliar people. And the street we were on, was being fixed. The bus slowed but hit a monster pothole. As a result I fell backwards, with my backpack into and onto the man standing behind me, and he fell into the guy next to him. apologized immediately as soon as I got to my feet. They both got up and started yelling N-word this and N-word that. No one said a word to them to stop them. That was 2016.

In the intervening 8 years I have had a number of experiences like that where they racist rants and I hope they deport you back to africa just flies! This has happened more times than I care to count. I couldn't leave the last time. I now have a window of opportunity to leave this time.

Fastforward to 2024:

3 days after his election this time, I went food shopping at a walmart, and had parked my van where there was no one behind me. I came out to find that someone had parked right behind me, leaving me no more than 6 inches to open my back doors. I did so, and as I did, this woman and her partner came out. She perks up with, "Hey N-word!, don't you hit my car ... " and then it was a stream of N-word this and that. She was agitated and I wasn't in the mood to create a scene so I just raised my hand, nodded my head. And that's when she said, "I can't wait until you're all gone and deported!". I turned and responded with, "Ma'am, I was born here". To which she said, "It doesn't matter, you're gonna die!"

That was it. That pushed me over the edge.

I needed to leave.

I've gathed up, sold whatever I had, tried to do this, that, and the other thing but I'm coming up short money wise. I need some help.

The bottom line is that I need some help with raising enough to live on and whatnot. I'm gonna need it going forward.

Thanks for reading.