Many of you know I have been very sick.

I am reaching out to you because I have new life-saving treatments available to me to improve my health that are not covered by my insurance. I really hope you can support me as I navigate this difficult journey in life. Your support means so much to me. Thank you!! ❤️

Sustained torture is defined as the treatment of a person with cruelty or violence, especially regularly or repeatedly. My name is Lauren Lindsay. This is my story.

I was physically abused and molested as a child, but I had such excitement when I entered college as a scholar. Yet, I met a monster my freshman year. I was abused, raped, forced into a cage and drugged. I waited every day for freedom. I just wanted to go to class. Would I make it to the next lecture or would my attacker punish my success? As I looked outside my window I saw groups of smiling faces reaching their destinations. I craved to know freedom. When I was in my dorm I crawled into my closet dreading a phone call from my attacker. Would he threaten my life again? I stayed in the small closet for 10 months. I did not eat. I did not drink, and I did not speak. I lost weight. I was sleep deprived and I feared my attacker. Why would he not let me go? I needed freedom! I realized my closet was my secret annex. In the darkness I began to comprehend my suffering. My attacker told me he would murder me if I spoke to He told me he would force me to live in a dog cage, and I did for a long time. I became a slave to silent living. Would I live another day?

As the years passed by I started to reflect on my life. Would I get carried out of my life in a body bag? Should I prepare a eulogy for my mother to speak at my funeral? So many thoughts...so many fears. The sustained abuse lasted for over 15 years and the number of abusers grew. Why do I live in torture? How do I escape abusers? I realized I could never give up on living because I had others who needed me. I love people. I needed to serve as a light for others. I had to create hope in the grimmest of hours. Although I have daily pain and suffering, I always provided kindness for other people. My name is Lauren Lindsay. Over the years I was threatened that I would be beheaded over and over again, kidnapped, trafficked, and so much more if I spoke up to anyone... friends, family or the law. I can not say much because my attackers are still out there. I am so afraid. I was cyberstalked, physically stalked, choked cut with knives, water tortured, and shown forced nudity. I am so afraid. The trauma I endured has left me with physical and emotional disabilities. I can not think, I can not function, I tried to work when I was younger, but I have not been able to work for over 10 years. I live in excruciating emotional pain. I am afraid to shower because of the rapes that occured. I am afraid of going anywhere. I am so strong.

While working as a nursing student, I learned about a concept referred to as the 'Starfish Principle'. Essentially, a man was collecting starfish washed ashore, and throwing them back into the water to preserve their lives. Although questioned due to the impossible nature of saving them all, the man continued to save the ones he could reach. This is the type of person I strive to become. Despite my debilitating disabilities I am dedicated to helping anyone I can reach...I want to serve as a light in others lives.

In order to escape my main attacker, I became homeless. He threatened my home. He threatened my livelihood. Even in the despair of homelessness, I never gave up. I could not go to doctors because I lived in fear. I live in so much fear and pain Help!

When doctors found unexplained masses on my body they did not know what to do. I was so sad. Treatments have not worked.

This has taken me years to write. My mind can not think. Help!

I am unable to work, focus, clean my home, go to the grocery store, change clothes, move without pain or falling, etc. I am severely disabled.

My name is Lauren Lindsay. I am a survivor.

#metoo #needlifesavingmedicaltreatment

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