Update: A few things have changed, to make this transition easier and smoother. I will be staying with family for a couple months while I get back on my feet and back on the road.

The storage unit will be back home, to avoid another long distance trip so im getting a Uhaul for the entirety of the trip, one time only. It has been reserved for the 18th.

I am abandoning the car, as paying tow fees is just not feasible for the budget :( its a bummer but some salvage yard will love it ‍♀️

The only help I really need at this point is travel costs....as Uhauls are gas hogs and its a 7 hour drive.

Thank you to everyone....friends, family and a couple mystery folks....that have donated and/or shared!

I have alot of anxiety about this next chapter of my life....but i know this decision is whats best for me and my children/grandchild. I know this is the step that will rebuild my life into what once was

Please help me get home.

I moved to NY almost 2 years ago, in hopes to start a new chapter that would be defined entirely by this idea that I needed independence from where I come from. I had the means, I had the drive.

But first, my CNA license couldn't be transferred, leaving me in a massive financial deficit that I wasnt prepared for. But I hopped on a new wagon and started a new job (not career) that made enough to just barely get by.

The place I lived in was too expensive so I moved to another town with a cheaper rent. However, not even a month later, my home was vandalized and the windows in my car stomped out. Another financial set back, a major one. My car sits, unfixed, and i can likely sell it to a salvage for a couple hundred at this point.

I got a new job, of course....but it was already too late, at that point. And that job was great until new ownership took over and I was let go while they figured out how to stay afloat. Being paid under the table, if I was paid at all, made unemployment impossible to collect. I have another job....that I can transfer back to Maine. So a job will be waiting for me on the other side.

Ive had so many set backs since being here, its made it nearly impossible to survive. I choose between food and heat. I currently have neither :(

My health took a turn last year when I was diagnosed with Lupus. Learning to cope with that has had its trials. Which in turn took its toll on my mental health.

Ive adopted out my cats...I've looked for a cheaper place. So many scammers and not enough renters, makes it hard to even stay here if i wanted to.

But I dont want to. I just want to go home, where I have my children (adults), my grandchild, my friends and my family. A support system both morally and mentally.

Ill need to put my home in storage until im settled and come back for it. I dont have anyone to take me in when I get there, so im just looking to buy a vehicle to live in or a cheap camper until I get on my feet.

Please help me....I need to go home :( I need to get back to the girl that used to smile and mean it. I need to get back to being that woman with drive and purpose.