Help my Mental & Physical Health + My Transition

TL;DR: Due to my medical issues, I need to go to the ER pretty often, but now we don't have enough money for that. I need physical therapy for my neck, back, eyes, and acute motor functions, but we also have no money for that. I need to loose weight but have no money for the gym. I have no way to get to a job and so I need money for a bike. I want to start my gender transition but have no money for that. I need medicine that I have no money for. And I need chest surgery asap because my large chest is making the discs in my back degrade which causes debilitating pain and permanent damage. And I need to be able to keep paying for therapy so that I don't end up hurting myself again.

Please help me. I need to fix what's wrong with my body and mind.

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I am raising money to support my gender transition, physical health, and mental health. This need comes at the worst possible time for me. My mother was recently fired from her job for no reason, and the money my grandma was going to give me when I turned 18 was taken by someone else. Right now, when I need help the most, I have nothing. I can't afford a bike to get to a job, testosterone, or gym access. I feel stuck and unable to help myself.

Most of the funds I raise will go toward top surgery because my large chest is making the discs in my back degrade and that's very painful and not good and other gender-affirming care. The rest will help me improve my physical and mental health. I will spend a lot of it on physical therapy for my neck and back, eyes, and acute motor functions. I plan to buy a gym pass so I can work on losing the weight I gained during a period of extreme depression. If possible, I hope to have enough left over to buy myself one nice thing each month, just to give myself something to look forward to and help me stay motivated and hopefully not make another attempt on my life.

You all are saving a young life. I've faced bullying since I was five, and now with medical and mental issues, I've felt mostly alone. I'm hoping this can be the turning point in my life where things start to go right for once, but it's impossible without the help from others. I've tried to help people all my life and I hope karma is on my side. Thank you to everyone who helps out. I probably wouldn't survive without you.

Here's my full story:

My name is Zane Allan Parr. While that's not my birth name, it is my chosen one. I like poetry, music, anime, Renaissance fairs, axe throwing, and more. Sadly, all my life I have dealt with more and more issues. Ever since I was a young kid, I have had severe depression due to severe and aggressive bullying. From the age of 5 all the way up to my current age of 17, I have been bullied relentlessly. Not only by classmates and teachers, but by my own sister and her friends too. My only friend was a school janitor who died from cancer during covid. Over time, I have developed more and more medical and mental issues. When I was 7 was when I developed my first suicidal thoughts. Now, I have attempted it more times than I can count. I have been in therapy for YEARS, and actually have made some progress.

Things that used to make me happy like drawing, writing poems and books, collecting Stuffed Animals, and singing I cannot do anymore. I now have a form of PTSD. While doing those things, different terrible things happened that have now made it so I burst into tears whenever I try and do those activities that once were my refuge.

(I will finish this when I have enough energy to type. sorry.)