This fundraiser is made because i need help desperately. I spent the last year fighting cancer. The treatment ravaged my body and mind. I've experienced a loss of focus and short term memory, which has been a pretty severe impairment to my daily life and ability to function. Immunotherapy created whole new issues, resulting in chronic arthritis, psoriasis and ulcerative colitis. I'm weak, have bad balance and I'm now deaf in my right ear.

Recently, my disability benefits were cut off abruptly. I live by myself, currently in Colombia. At the end of February, I'll be returning to the US but I need money to make it until then. I need about $2,000 to be able to cover my rent and bills. Otherwise I'll be left with no ability to even return to the US.

Most of you reading this know that i have another fundraiser that's been going for a long time. Many of you have probably contributed. I'm making this one to be separate for more transparency. I think that a lot of people see the other one and think that it's not that important because thousands of dollars were raised on that one. But that one is a year old or more, and most of those donations were given within the first month or two. So it looks like it's been very successful, but it hasn't.

Hopefully, this will help people who might donate to look and easily see what's been raised towards my goal and also not lead people to think that I've already made thousands of dollars, so they'll be more inclined to help.

I'm serious. I don't know what else to do and everything just keeps hitting me. Over and over. I'm not sure how much more of this is can take. I'm in a really bad place right now, mentally and emotionally. If this doesn't work, I'm not sure what I'll end up doing. I've struggled my entire life with suicidal urges, and right now they're stronger than I've felt in years. I'm cognizant enough to realize that I'm in danger, but I'm also unable to use that knowledge to fight it.

Please help.