Help Me Avoid Homelessness

my current living situation is not sustainable - i need out, asap

any funds sent to me will be used to help a QPOC trans individual (me) get out of extreme isolation and escape neglect that may be unintentional but makes life no less unbearable. moving materials, transport, and new housing are all the top uses of any donations sent to me - if i can live almost anywhere else, i can thrive on my own. this isolated town with only my roomies as my only tether to the outside world is simply the worst fit for me and my needs.

please let it be abundantly clear that i love my roommates, they're great people, we are friends; things just aren't good right now. im not trying to bash them, i mean no ill will toward them, i just have needs that are no longer being met and need a change of scenery to retain my friendship with them - details regarding the situation below:

my roommates are beginning to heavily neglect me; they are my sole way to get meds, food, etc. they are explicitly aware of this and agreed to being this for me upon my moving in; in the last year they have begun to de-prioritize me/my needs.

i dont feel like i can boil it down to them having poor mental health anymore; i was giving them the benefit of the doubt as i know they both suffer from certain conditions, but they dont forget meds for themselves/each other, or their grandma who lives 5 minutes up the road (they claim they forget their own stuff all the time and that i'm not being treated any differently, but if they forget their stuff that often, then they forget mine twice as much, as I often don't receive my things on days i clearly watched them unload their own).

i have to beg for days about prescriptions - and they have the audacity to get annoyed at me for asking, then forget still even after all the fuss. grocery trips for my stuff are clearly less important than grocery trips for their own things - i can only hope to get groceries if i happen to know they're already going out (they do not tell me if they're leaving) - and god forbid i want more than one stop for anything.

i tried to politely bring up my dissatisfaction with the change in their level of care toward me, requesting an increase in communication, and was promptly shut down and gaslit while be accused of guilt tripping.

their girlfriend, who lives hours away, is in the group chat i ask for my needs in too, and sees my asking over and over and getting ignored - they are blatantly ignoring me in front of someone else whom cares about me. they see her see me beg, and that changes nothing about the urgency in getting me the things i need.

she is offering to start trying to help me get my things even though it would take hours out of her day just to do that; she cannot do so with any consistency, but she is also upset at seeing me ask over and over for nothing to change.

i am grateful to have a roof over my head where i can be my visibly queer/trans self, can smoke all i need for my chronic pain/disabilities, and can have both my cats and they are taken care of - i am beyond in their debt, and i understand how much they do for me. it is not lost on me that i am a large responsibility, that my needs are not insignificant, etc. they are otherwise great people - they're just no longer good roommates for me and my needs.

theyre making my quality of life unbearable now. i was already isolated beyond words just moving here - no access to my friends, no peers my age/race/sexuality/gender, no available work anywhere even remotely nearby, and no enrichment outside of my PC. i have become horrifically depressed just by living where we do, but now, on top of the crippling isolation, they are literally starting to neglect me, unknowingly or not, and deny me my basic needs in a timely manner - needs they do not ignore for other people nor themselves. the ONLY things regarding me that they don’t ignore are seemingly my medical appointments - and even then we leave late half the time - and my pets needs.

there are no jobs where we are, and i cant find work online despite trying for 3+ years to land literally anything. i am starting to stream on twitch and take art commissions as some kind of help, but it is not easy to get your foot into such oversaturated markets, and creativity when you've never been more depressed in your life is rather hard to conjure and sustain.

i need to get out of here soon. i’m approaching two years here and i cant handle a third; i cannot thrive here - i can barely exist.

please consider donating or sharing to help me escape isolation and neglect.