Support Montanna's Journey to Stability

Hey, my name is Montanna! I hope everyone is doing well! Life is difficult for everyone, so I understand if you’re not able to help me, but if you could share, I’d greatly appreciate it!

I’m at a critical moment in my life and this is very embarrassing for me to do, but I’m kind of at a loss right now. So, here goes. I’ve always struggled, whether that be through bullying when I was young, having a father who was a drug addict, and combating bipolar disorder and anxiety. I’ve attempted on my life many times, been in and out of the hospital, and have struggled holding a job. I’m holding myself accountable for my bad decisions, but I’m trying to claw my way out of this hole. I’m impulsive and often lead with my emotions, but I finally feel like I’m making it to the other side of this dark place I’ve been in for 8 years. I have a doctor I resonate with and a therapist who is so sweet. I got a new job I feel comfortable at that offers to pay for my bachelor’s degree (which I’ve applied and am waiting to hear back from). I’ve been going to the gym, provided for by the same job, and have my cat Winter who is my service animal (my rock, honestly). I’ve been making a lot of strides, but I understand there is a long way to go.

I think I’ve found a place to live, but the last thing I really need is a car. I’ve been struggling to figure out how to do so because I have a repo on my record. So, my best bet is buying one outright. I was in a car accident (not my fault) back in November of 2023 and had to finance a car quickly. While struggling with my disorder, living alone, and going to school, it was hard to get by. I was admitted to the hospital that January of 2024, jumped right back into school, and found a job soon after. However, I tripped up and moved back in with my parents after a near attempt in July and was assaulted on a date in October. I haven’t attempted since then and know I’m of value to this world, especially through my vulnerability and tenacity. So as embarrassing as it is, I’m asking for help. Don’t feel obligated in any way, and I thank you so much for being there. We’ve got this and don’t let the world drag you down!!