I sat with this text window open, staring blankly because I feel so much embarrassment for being here and asking for help, and I don’t know where to begin.

I need help. Recently, I made a decision to leave my place of employment because of a very uncomfortable situation I was put into by an employee. A coworker came to me, at random, and expressed his very offensive opinion about the trans community, and it was not received well by me. I reported this individual to his manager, who was then supposed to escalate it to HR, but failed to follow through. I tried to stay and put up with the discomfort and unsafe feeling, but I couldn’t do it any longer. I have been on 9 interviews, sent out hundreds of resumes to be met with denial after denial after denial. There were some hopefuls in there but just didn’t pan out. I am still awaiting one final interview for a lead position at Nothing Bundt Cakes but at this point, with eviction on the line, even if I were able to stay in San Diego, I would have no life whatsoever. I fear, at this point, it is best to just move on.

My roommate has also informed me that he needs to leave the apartment (I will not disclose their personal business) and is unable to pay rent this month and next, which is our last month. I cannot cover my own rent at the moment, let alone assist in paying his portion. With this and my unemployment, I am now facing eviction. With this, I have absolutely no way to stay in San Diego because I have no place to go and will soon be out of funds. It’s time for me to go.

At this point, the plan is to move to Ohio. I have a dear friend there willing and offering to help me get back on my feet. This would mean leaving everything behind and starting over. I can do that. I can donate, give away, or sell everything I can. I would be moving there on a train. I’ve done this before and it’s an amazing experience. I’m looking at potentially leaving May 4 and arriving May 7; 60 hours of travel. In the meantime, I still need to eat and at least pay my cell phone and credit card bills.

A quote from a dear friend:

Not all those who wander are lost, some of us wander for the sake of experiencing life in all its forms...

Thank you for listening, and not judging. This is not something easy to do.

❤️ Landon