I'm not ready for her to go

I feel so sad and my heart hurts for my girl Ladybug. I've had her since she was a little baby, when I restarted my life over 5-6 years ago. She's been through all the highs and all the lows of life with me. And now she needs my help. We all thought she was pregnant and that's why her tummy was growing so big because she has acted completely normal and happy. But today she all of a sudden went downhill at home and I rushed her to the vet.....She's not pregnant. They did an ultrasound and she has Pyometra. It's life-threatening and needs emergency surgery. I sat in that vet room bawling, holding my girl while she meowed looking at me like "mom...what's wrong?"

They gave us two options: expensive surgery or put her to sleep. And I never wanted to have to make this decision for her because she's still a happy, playful cat right now who still needs more time to make her biscuits. I'm supposed to take care of her and make her better when she's sick. That's my job as her mama. We hate asking for help and I am NOT someone to ask for help AT ALL, ever. But we could really use some help right now to save our girl. The surgery would save her life. She wants to live. ❤️

This is how big she is right now. Her uterus is slap full of pus. She's had an antibiotic shot today at the vet hospital, and they gave us pain meds to bring home. Unfortunately, though, we don't have long to make the decision. I'm gonna do all I can while I still have time.

**And we've tried CareCredit and Scratchpay. Can't do it