Support Kat's Journey to Healing and Stability

Hello everyone. If you’ve taken the time to open & read this, I sincerely appreciate it. My name is Kat, as most of you know. I have been living on my own since I was 17 and was diagnosed a couple of years ago with one of the most severe & debilitating dissociative mental health disorders to exist. Since I was 14, I have been in and out of every type of therapy, tried all the pills, all the religions, EMDR, cannabis, everything to help, and only this year after turning 21 have I finally felt like I am able to start being open & authentic with everyone and actually begun my root trauma healing journey. I have been hiding for a long time. Hiding from being perceived, hiding from forgiving myself for the things out of my control, suppressing/internalizing every emotion, hiding from people who love and care for me because my mind is convinced I don’t belong here. But I do. And now I need help, the first and last time I will ever take this to social media. I’m desperate.

I just moved into a new apartment that will be cutting the old rent I paid before in half. This would allow me to save up to start school, pay back loans from family members I’ve had the past year or two, and finish my healing journey somewhere I feel safe and at peace. However, I’ve had one too many expenses and with how much work I’ve had to take off to process through my trauma the past 6 months has severely impacted my budget. On top of that, I got behind on finances already when I started a new food service job that was supposed to pay me plenty for bills, but ended up being about half of that each paycheck. I have been trying and trying to keep up, asking for loans from my angel of a brother who has graciously helped me many times before when my car broke down or I was sick for a month or just needed extra support. He has taken the roles of both my parents after the passing of my dad in 2017 and after my mom moved to Florida while I was still in high school and could no longer afford me. My aunt has also been such a gift from the universe as she has also supported me emotionally/mentally/financially the past couple of months. However, I’ve exhausted my support system and they have lives and children and businesses and I don’t want to keep asking—and I am determined that this is the last time I will ask for help as I have had a breakthrough in therapy and started working full-time at a well-paying job that I am enjoying, is stable & consistent, and isn’t food service anymore. All that being said—I don’t get paid until the 24th of the month. My first month's rent at my new place is $1140 because an unexpected bill came out and my account was overdrafted. They put an eviction notice on my door yesterday and I just don’t know what to do. I’m so close to being done with this chapter of my story and I’m so unbelievably ready to move on but I’m now so behind and every day it’s just piling up and I just need help. So, if you made it this far, thank you for even just reading my story, please share if you feel so compelled, I just want to be able to feel safe and happy in my own home for the first time ever. Thank you so much.

Wishing you safety, health, and peace - Kat