Every year on my birthday, I celebrate part of the community that I'm working in. This year, that day was spent alone as I tried to pick myself up after hitting an emotional bottom in my life.

My childhood trauma has erupted in volcanic form, and I have to work through it.

I have an amazing team of professionals that are supporting me. I have 23 hours of therapy and outpatient programming a week, in addition to working full time. I am surrounded by a work family that truly cares for me, as imperfect as I am, despite my mistakes.

I need my own home, short or long term, that's to be determined. I need to gain emotional strength, push through flashbacks, and learn how to care for myself and, quite honestly, a broken heart. I need to rebuild myself so I am the woman, mother, and Heidi that is a helper and survivor.

I found a small home that I'd like to rent, in a safe neighborhood in Fort Collins.

I am asking for financial support and I will repay everyone within a year. I am hoping to gather a deposit and first month's rent, so that I can start this journey in the green, not the red.

I am so grateful.