I’m about to be very vulnerable and I know I have some people on here that aren’t going to be happy to see this but sometimes you need to be vulnerable and ask the community for insight.

Back in July I was working at Zaxby’s and we were in a much better financial position at the time, I was getting tons of hours but it became a very tough time for mason and I. We never see one another, that caused a big heart ache between us and our marriage. Our kids never seen us together and they rarely ever seen me either because I was closing a lot.

I ended up leaving that job because my children and marriage were more of a priority.

I went and got a job near the house at Jason’s deli and enjoyed the Job a lot but it was a huge pay cut and not consistent hours. I was getting 40hrs at first and then it got lower and lower. Eventually I only had 14 hours.

Then I had a death in my family and had to drive to Connecticut twice to be with family because I couldn’t let the guilt of money be the reason why I didn’t say my goodbyes to my grandpa. I had so much money going out because of the death, the change of jobs and the lack of hours. I knew I needed to find a new job because i needed constant hours.

I got a job offer at the daycare my kids are at and it split the daycare bill in half (thank goodness). I’m scheduled 40 hours a week but if you did not know I’m currently 27 weeks pregnant. Almost in my third trimester. So I’m always missing every 2 weeks for atleast an hour. And soon itlll be every week. I work 830-530 with a mandatory hour break but my break is when my ob is on break also. So I can’t go at that time for my appts or I would.

We’ve been really just struggling to get by and after having someone look into our finances we seen that we have racked up our credit cards so bad because we had to rely on those for our bills. Now with all those credit cards most of our check goes to paying the minimum of them, and having it to where our bills outweigh our income. We have 2 kids. A 4 & 2 year old. We’ve tried to sell my car, but everything that gets offered isn’t enough to pay it off. We’ve tried getting a lower payment and we can’t. We pay $1415 in rent so that takes up a whole paycheck(we get paid biweekly). We keep our heat at 64 and just bundle our kids so we can have a cheaper payment. We buy secondhand. We don’t qualify for Foodstamps but we get wic so we use it as much as we can. We have no streaming apps and don’t eat out anymore. We are trying so hard to save a dollar even for groceries. Mason goes into work 6 or 7 days a week to get as much overtime as possible but it’s not a permanent thing.

We have had people donate us food to get us by; we had a friend buy our kids clothes and toiletries. And my MIL and aunt have bought stuff for our kids Christmas. We have accepted any help we can get. I did not want to post this but knowing that we have a baby coming soon and we have very little for this baby means that it’s just another thing we are failing in. Not being able to get what our new baby needs. Me and mason aren’t buying anything for one another and we haven’t even been able to buy for our kids for Christmas. Other people have but we personally have not. Weve tried so hard to earn extra money so we can pay on our bills but we still manage to not be able to. Because when you have to decide a bill or food for your kids. Or this bill or that bill.

I’m asking for helping on helping us get out of this steep hole, to help us see some light. Every day I look at my bank account and just pray I’m not in a negative or Mason’s isn’t because that’s how low our accounts are after we get paid.

When this nice lady did our finances we was in the negative for paying everything in the month that we couldn’t even get gas or groceries because we don’t make enough out of the monthly income verses our bills we have coming out.

I never made a gofundme before and don’t know how to really go about it but if you’ve made it to the end of this and have some positive prayers, some insight, something you want to donate, or have it where you can donate to us I can post my info. Or if someone can help me make a gofundme to help us not lose what we’ve worked so hard for. I pray so hard every day for a light at the end of the tunnel and not keep seeing the “late fees” added up or the “you’re late on your payment” “final notice”.

Please continue to pray for our family and if you will please share this for the sake of my family.