Hi. Many of you have known me via work, social media, or wherever. I am coming on here, not asking for a ridiculous amount, but enough to help with bills or other expenses.

I lost Jordan due to being hit by a driver, a hit and run, on December 19th. I heard it all. I was on the phone with him, and I heard the impact and the paramedics 5 minutes later, “Bag him! Bag him! He’s unresponsive!” They hung up, and I looked at his location and went to the hospital. His mom was there by the time I got there. I was with him every day from the 19th to the 25th. I would talk to him, play music, and even just sit there holding his hand. The morning of the 25th, I went early and gave him one last kiss, one last 'I love you,' and I put his hand on my cheek for the last time. Before I left, I kissed his hand again and squeezed it one more time. “I love you, my love. Always remember that,” I said before leaving the ICU. “I hope to meet you again, my love. I love you.” I walked out of the hospital feeling empty and broken. Six years. Six amazing years and almost a year of our engagement. The photo I share was the last time I held his hand, and I’m treasuring that, my memories, my photos, everything, because he was and is my everything.

I have been attending therapy, and sadly those medical bills have stacked to where I need help. I have gone through and sold many personal items in an attempt to try and cover these bills. I know this might seem selfish to ask or even seem like a bother, but currently, I am off work to grieve and process the loss of Jordan, which has been difficult. I miss him terribly, and I know others miss him as well.

I appreciate everyone who has reached out and who has even asked how I was doing and respected my space. I have no amount of words to express how much I appreciate your kindness and support through this time.

I wish to share as well: Jordan was an amazing person, full of life and love, and his personality was infectious to everyone around him—his friends, family, coworkers, and me. His smile and his light would light up a room. He was a hardworking man, putting others before himself. He was a shut-in but soon became a social butterfly.

He will be missed so much by me, his friends, and everyone who met him. We will miss his laughter and goofy Mickey Mouse impression, him making his little screech noises, his Thursdays playing Yu-Gi-Oh! with his friends, our Disney dates, him passing gum out to coworkers, everything.

As we live on, we live on for him. We are strong for him, and we show the love that he gave to each one of us because that was who Jordan was—a loving, funny, caring soul. And he was loved by all.

With any remaining funds, I would love to get a tattoo in remembrance of Jordan. To keep him close along with my memories. I know that seems selfish, but I hope you understand how much of an importance he was and is in my life.

Thank you.