Help Cloud Access Life-Saving Medical Treatment

I’m in a desperate race against time and money. Right now, I’m facing a cascade of critical medical needs INCLUDING testing for a possible autoimmune disorder, heart damage from undertreated scarlet fever, systemic mastocytosis, and potential melanoma. At the same time, my doctors are also urging treatments for CPTSD and my dissociation disorder, like TMS therapy, just to function everyday. Each diagnosis is a lengthy, expensive battle and without outside help, I can’t afford the tests, treatments, or even my rent. I’m terrified of what happens if I can’t pursue these answers. Your support could literally save my life.

I grew up in an extremely abusive household; I was verbally, physically, emotionally, and sexually abused by multiple adults including my family. I have brain damage from preverbal trauma. My parents neglected my health, even after suicide attempts and rare illnesses (scarlet fever, MRSA, severe allergies, sleep disorders). They took savings money from me and refused pursuing proper medical care.

I have an ACES score of 8.

At 15, I started to work part time jobs to escape. I excelled in music and art, playing gigs at 14, but chose art university for better job stability. In 2020 at 18, I moved out with no support from anyone, working night shifts while attending college. When I first moved out, I lived in an unsafe area 45 min walk away from campus. I didn't and still don't have a car. To survive, because the other jobs weren't paying nearly enough, I started working as a strip club hostess at 20, then later as a stripper, facing additional trauma from physical and sexual assault from working there.

( I want to note I am and have always been a completely sober person. There is a common stereotype that people who strip are drug addicts but that couldn't be farther from my reality and I want to clear that up for you guys. )

Despite ADHD, CPTSD, and PMDD and UDD diagnoses ( which I paid for out of pocket from money I saved working at the club ), psychiatric medications worsened my health due to rare side effects I got from each one I tried. In 2023, I moved closer to school ( 5 min walk ) but had to strip fulltime to be able to afford this apartment. Working there kept making my health worse and worse but I had no other option. This year, after oral surgery and sudden anaphylaxis which caused me to have to be out of school for 3 weeks, a professor who refused to abide by my academic accommodations triggered a PTSD flashback when I tried to advocate for myself but he got up in the middle of me talking and left the room. This led me to have an attempt.

I'm currently on medical leave from university now and as a requirement I have to be diligent about getting proper health diagnoses and beginning treatment so that I'm able to return in a year and a half.

After this happened, in May I reached out to two club regulars for help because they are the only people I knew in my life who could potentially provide some kind of financial support so I could focus on getting better; One expected s_x if he were to help so I declined. The other agreed to help me until the end of the year but he suddenly withdrew this month. Now, I’m panicking because I don't know how I'm going to afford my rent, medical bills and exams to diagnose possible autoimmune disorder, possible heart issues from having undertreated scarlet fever, possible systemic mastocytosis, and potentially melanoma, along with treatments for my CPTSD and dissociative disorder like TMS therapy, that my Drs are recommending right now. All of these things are lengthy processes to diagnose and CRAZY expensive.

I want to sustain myself through art online, but in order to grow as fast as possible, because my situation was so desperate, it was easier on my health for me to post more photos of myself than art over the last 2 years. I really wish I could work any job ( food, retail, desk ) right now to supplement my income as I'm trying to grow my art skills, but my worsening health makes traditional jobs impossible now. Going outside has also been often triggering my CPTSD since my attempt in April. It's hard for me to leave the house without my throat swelling due to smells and the air that triggers a histamine response, along with getting blood pressure issues from standing and moving for too long.

Right now, I feel completely hopeless and this is my last resort. I’ve exhausted every option, even putting myself in dangerous situations, just to survive. I’m sharing my story because I need a safety net while I focus on healing and building my life. Any support, whether financial or simply sharing this campaign, means more than I can say, and ANY kind of support is giving me a chance to live, to breathe, and give me access to a future that I couldn't imagine.

Thank you so much for reading this and hearing my story.