My name is Blue (22) and my fiancé's name is Meghan (23). We are currently staying with meghan’s parents in Wilmington NC and we are just at a loss. Life has been continually kicking our behinds for the past year and has created a major financial burden for us and our families. My younger brother passed unexpectedly in july last year and ive been struggling incredibly hard with that mentally and lost my job as a result. We had to drive to arizona and back to north carolina for my brothers sake. While we were in Arizona, struggling financially and on the streets, we tragically lost our son due to the stress of living out of a car, and driving back and forth across the country. Meghan was 6 months pregnant and we were expecting a baby boy. Those things alone have been incredibly difficult to battle on our own. And honestly led us both into some drug use struggling with all of these painful things, We’ve since been clean for almost three months. And put into a diversion program to keep our records clean and help us maintain our sobriety. We have both been doing incredibly well in our programs. We don’t have much family who can help either. My dad just got laid off so he can’t help and he’s been my lifeline in the past, i owe him thousands of dollars at this point. Meghan’s parents are also low on funds due to Meghan’s Mimi having recurrent health issues. They just placed Mimi on hospice which has been difficult, emotionally and financially on the whole family.

We have not been able to find jobs in months (not for lack of trying). We have been doing DoorDash/Instacart for income in the meantime and have barely been making ends meet. We have put ourselves into so much debt trying to stay afloat on DoorDash. Our car recently broke down because we couldn’t afford regular maintenance. I’m looking at having to replace the entire engine or get an entirely new vehicle.

We need help to get our car fixed, or get a new used car on marketplace (5-7000$), help with our diversion program fees (800), as well as covering our dog/cat food and basic expenses in the meantime. For example, I haven’t paid my phone bill in two months (160$) so i have no phone service which is essential for my diversion program, my bank account for all my bills is currently -264.31 from bills coming out on autopay. Meghan lost her drivers license unable to pay a speeding ticket (400$ for her license/court fees/dmv) we have a storage unit in Charlotte NC of all my childhood belongings that is about to be taken from us because we can’t pay it (250$), obviously I have car insurance that needs to be paid (150$) and the tags on my car are about to be expired so we need to cover that as well (250$ for inspection and tags/late fees). Not to mention about 2000$ in credit card debt. My credit score is completely shot. My cat, Luno, is also sick and needs to go to the vet i just have no money to take him. And my dog, Duke and cat, Luno are also both due for their rabies vaccines. God knows how much that is gonna cost. We are currently living with Meghan’s parents and they are willing to give rides when they can but they are both incredibly busy with taking care of Mimi especially. And we obviously can’t afford any ubers or city busses. We have very minimal friends who can help with rides either because all of our old friends partake in substances and we are trying to maintain a clean living environment. We have 0$. we just spent the last of our money covering diversion fees so we don’t get kicked out of our program. Her parents are not the happiest with us being here, my poor cat won’t stop crying at the door for hours because we have to keep him in our bedroom and i would imagine the poor baby is losing his mind. we have been unable to find housing and got denied for the only apartment we could afford to apply for. We’ve slept in the car for months in the past but obviously that’s not an option if we don’t have a car. We can’t go to our IOP groups so this is now starting to affect our diversion program/NA and sobriety goals. Not being able to get our medicine daily is detrimental for us.

We just want to live a happy, normal life. We wouldn’t be asking for help if we had any other options. I feel so guilty even posting this. No young girls should have to do the things we have just to continue being kicked while we’re down. We have a living opportunity in Washington state with one of my best friends, i was planning on driving out there in a month or so and staying with my best friend until i got a job and could get an apartment for myself, meghan, and our two fur babies. That opportunity is obviously no longer attainable with no money or car to get me there. Even if i wanted to go home to Arizona and live with my dad i have again, no way of getting there and wouldn’t be able to bring my fur babies.

I hate posting this. I hate asking for help. But i’m hoping if every single person who sees this donates a single dollar, that could move mountains for us. I’m hoping if we can reach our goal of 12,000 that would be enough to get us a new car, get our bills zeroed out, and at least get us to a point where we are starting at 0 instead of in the negatives, and hopefully be enough for us to get to washington and start our new life out there.

Thank you for taking the time to read, share, and donate to this link. And i can’t wait to share updates with you all as our life moves up from here and we are hopefully able to knock out some of these bills and get us back into a stable living situation. The only way to go is up from here. Thank you and God Bless.