support artist with MND in finishing album

I'm sure there's a more sane way to write this but I'm just going to start, like, rapid-fire, eyes closed;

I just have this feeling that it's the only way I'll be able to say what I need to--at very least it will be clear that I didn't click the enhance with AI option:

I am working on album consisting of my own songs entitled "I Said That I'd Sing Glad Songs (That Don't Start With 'I') and my ability make it come to fruition as much I would like for it to is, I mean, to put it somewhat mildly...compromised. I'm 32 and have UMN Predominant Motor Neuron Disease...and my ability to play guitar is...without getting into it but so much all but non-existent; I've got this kind of fucked up janky system where I can at least press the side of my hand down across the fret board and play open chords with super low tension open tunings to some degree...my piano playing...I mean I can still sort of play piano but to be completely transparent i mostly would categorize my pre-this piano playing as like Floyd Cramer if he mostly just slapped the piano, so...that may speak for itself.

Over the years I have accumulated these tools that I have access to currently: a scarlett 2i2 recording interface with only one working mic input and a dying usb-c connector, and a laptop with a nonfunctioning screen that requires connection to an external monitor; I've got the questionable condenser mic that came with the scarlett, i've got an sm beta 58a, a yamaha fg or something or another acoustic, a keyboard which once had MIDI capacity but...does not now, and a more than appropriate quantity of quality utility and effects vst plugins, and a korg volca keys synth and have actually become somewhat...somewhat (somewhat!) adept at mixing (I mean, this may not be totally true I think perhaps I have) probably thanks to spending hours and hours...years...trying to sculpt my recordings, which...i'd say...i mean there was a time in more recent memory than i would like where i would say the most apt comparison would be to like if somebody expulsed a sharp fart, like a fart with a sharpness that would make you concerned for the one who expulsed it but like if somebody expulsed a really sharp fart right up next to your ear...but as I said, I've had to really really dive into the realm of grounding myself in an understanding of processing and arranging audio because I'm over here having to massage sharp fart recordings into palatability.

I am dependent on a power wheelchair, and in all actuality can't leave the house by myself, I have diaphragm spasms that cause my singing voice to just be like I mean to call it unpredictable would be...complimentary...there's just a lot of hurdles and idk it's become very important to me to get these songs articulated and molded into a "product" though that's not the word I was really looking for that does the songs justice. I used to be so self conscious, counterproductively self-effacing, etc. with regard to my songs, but I'd still put them out there, you know, but they'd sound like trash, often deliberately so, sort of hiding out of a lack of confidence in the songs themselves and I feel like perhaps communicated this idea that 'if this person doesn't give enough of a shit to present them appropriately, why should we?" and, like, that's changed for the most part I love these songs and I don't feel the need to apologize for them, to be honest, I know these are grotesque or as my friend put it 'deranged' songs in some places but the grotesquery serves a purpose (though intentionality is mostly unimportant, I realize). I was speaking with a mixing engineer on Reddit and he listened to some of my stuff and his reaction was "The synth is absolutely giving me a headache, and um... holy shit. Is there a reason why it can't just be a regular good and decent song?? It's a good song... without the synth.

You have a great voice and you can actually write a song. Why don't you just... do that? You need a producer. Some people do, some people don't. But I see so much promise in your stuff, but like, when you came in and sabotaged an absolutely lovely song with some wanna be nickelodeon nightmare synth thing, I mean... you need somebody to come in and say, "Uh, how about no bro" because it's really good stuff, but man so stupid with that synth. lol" Which was much appreciated feedback but nothing I'm not at least somewhat aware. It comes from the reasons I touched on previously as well as a frustration with the inability to bring these songs into existence in the way in which I hear them in my head. I am going to try to include the lyrics to the songs here somewhere I don't know how this works, (looks like there's a link at the bottom) but I have no income but am super lucky in so many ways as I live in an accessible tiny home my parents' built for me next to their house on their property. I suppose what I'm asking for is help with funding as far first as reliable basic equipment, and cheap acoustic treatment, and to be able to hire musicians, a producer, etc. And that's the anticlimactic abrupt end to this excruciating wall of text. I appreciate you reading it, and I greatly appreciate any help IHSTISGSTDSWI lyrics