As some of you know from my post a few days ago, I was attacked by my fiancé in my home and beaten, strangled, had a loaded gun to my head, and a knife thrown at me as I ran for the front door trying to escape. He kicked in my front glass door shattering glass all over my living room and front porch, punch holes in doors around my house causing so much damage that I will have to repair as well. I was able to get away to the neighbors and call 911 as he fled in his truck.

i am beyond humiliated having to ask for help like this. I work 50 hours a week but is not always enough to support me financially. Part of the reason I stayed so long in an abusive relationship, he was very verbally and emotionally abusive for most of the relationship, is because I relied on his income to support us and knew I couldn’t make it alone. I had no choice but to call the police and press charges and get a protective order. The police found him and arrested him the next day and he is in jail now with a $250,000 bail facing a long prison sentence. I will be missing more work having many court dates and trial as well.

I had no idea where to turn for financial help until I can figure out what my options are. I had to miss several days of work last week because of being bruised from head to toe and could not physically or mentally do my job on my feet 11 hours a day. That got me behind on bills and am still not mentally or physically healed to be back at work although I went back Sunday scared to take any more time off and lose more money.

I need time to get everything of his out of my home, to look at other career options where I can make an income that will support myself and all my fur babies, and time to get some mental help at the crisis center taking classes and therapy.

I keep blaming myself for just not letting him get away with it so that he could have gone back to work in a few days and then everything would have been fine, he would apologized and felt bad the next day, and things would have been good for a little while and I wouldn’t be scared to death about how I’m going to make it the next couple of months. But I know this had to happen to end the abuse and the cycle I was living with him. I’ve completely lost myself but plan now to find myself again one day at a time.

Again, I am so embarrassed and humiliated to be in this situation and asking for help here. I would be beyond appreciative for anything and will be completey willing to make this a loan situation and repay over time. Thank you for everything and for even just listening and for all your supportive comments and prayers on my posts about this. It has helped me more than you know!

God Bless!