Support Amba Jai's Healing Journey to Hawaii

✨ UPDATE: First Goal Met — Stretch Goal Activated! ✨

I am in absolute awe.

Thanks to an outpouring of love, generosity, and support from this incredible community, our initial $5,000 goal was met in just over 36 hours. I am floored, grateful, and deeply moved by the way you all showed up — not just for me, but for this sacred rebirth I’m stepping into.

For transparency, I'm increasing the goal to reflect the true stretch needs of this transition.

The additional funds will help:

Cover any remaining or unexpected financial hurdles between now and departure.

Provide support in replacing essential items that cannot be shipped.

Offer a bit more breathing room during this big shift — physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

This stretch goal is about ensuring that I land in Hawaii with the grounding, support, and stability to begin again with clarity and strength, and be of true service in the healing community I’m joining.

Thank you for walking beside me.

Let’s keep rising, together.

With endless gratitude and fierce love, Amba

My Story

Four and a half years ago, I was ready to step into my long-awaited freedom — an empty-nester preparing to finally travel and explore after spending my entire life rooted in the same small city.

Then came the call.

My biological granddaughter had been taken into CPS custody. She was already showing signs of severe mental illness — the same illness her mother, now in-and-out of homelessness suffering from schizophrenic, battles daily.

There was no one else. So, I dropped everything.

I gave up my freedom, financial stability, and my future plans to become her full-time caregiver. I found a home, gave up 50% of my income, and poured every ounce of myself into keeping her safe and out of the system.

What Life Has Been Like

Since then, life has been dynamic & difficult.

I’ve had bones broken, been physically attacked regularly, and live with the daily, many times violent emotional dysregulation of a young child diagnosed Reactive Attachment Disorder, ODD, ADHD combined, Major Depression, Separation Anxiety DO, PTSD.

There are no mental health services available in our area for her level of need at her young age, and I’ve been turned away at ERs while begging for help.

I’ve walked this path nearly alone.

Most of my family didn’t support the decision. Most of my social circle faded. I’ve lived on high alert, in fear, exhausted, for over four years.

I was recently terminated from my job because of the time I had to take off due to her crises. I now have no income, no unemployment yet, no social benefits for March, and rent due in days.

I am hustling to sell belongings, work some side gigs, see some bodywork clients, scraping together funds for food and utilities, and trying to survive this time without taking a full-time position — so I can focus on our safety, prepare for the next chapter, and move forward.

A Light Has Appeared

There is hope.

My granddaughter has been accepted into a long-term treatment center, with admission in about 10 weeks.

She will finally receive the care and stability she needs.

I will finally be able to rest, breathe, sleep without fear, and tend to my own healing — for the first time in many many years.

And I’ve been offered the chance of a lifetime.

A trusted friend and sister has invited me to join her on a 19-acre property in Pāhoa, Hawaii, where we will co-create a healing retreat center and intentional community — a dream I’ve carried in my heart for years.

I will serve as a community steward and healer, working the land, offering support to others, and living in alignment with my soul’s purpose.

This is my fresh start, my sacred rebirth, my chance to heal and finally live freely and joyfully. Filling my cup, soothing my nervous system, and preparing for my granddaughter's return when the time comes, to offer her the healing of the land as well.

What I Need

To make this possible, I need help with travel and basic living expenses. I am starting from zero funds and doing all I can — but I can’t do it alone.

Your support will help cover:

✈️ Travel Costs (flight + baggage): ~$1,000

Storage + Shipping for Essentials: ~$700 stretch goal $1,700

Living Expenses for 3 Months (food, transport, replacement of essentials): ~$1,800 ~ stretch goal $3,800

Emergency Cushion (savings for stability): ~$1,500 stretch goal $2,500

Total Goal: $5,000 stretch goal $9,000

Housing in Hawaii is already secured.

Your support helps me get there, stay afloat, and begin again safely and with peace of mind.

Why It Matters

I’ve spent the last 25 years sacrificing everything to protect, first her mother and now her as her mind spins in crisis.

Now, I’m asking for help to honor and protect myself, to rebuild, and to step into a new life full of purpose, healing, and community.

If you feel moved, please donate or share this with someone who might.

Every bit of help — donations, kind words, shares — brings me closer to this new beginning.

Thank you for seeing me, for believing in healing, and for helping me rise from survival into sacred rebirth.

With Love and Gratitude

Amba Jai