Hello I’m Alphie! I’m 23 and have gastroperesis, intestinal failure, gastric atrophy and I struggle with epilepsy aswell I was recently placed on hospice care as I am not expected to live much longer because my intestines no longer can handle tube feeds and we were at our last option my nj tube i thought it would work to fix my pain more and maybe have me tube feed a little better that was quickly shot down when I realized my intestines weren’t taking anything in and my doctors said there wasn’t much more they could do to help me my last option that was used to keep me alive is no longer an option for me me and my partner are in a really bad place financially and need help funding my memorial services paying for my cremation and more in regards to my end of life I also made this fund so my end of life the time I have left is not left me in a situation where I cannot buy things that make me happy near my end of time such as clothes to keep me comfy as my recent hospital visit I developed a lot of infections and contaminated my clothes because I lost function of my Bowels and the bacteria I had to throw them away I am extremely skinny and tiny now as weight loss is unavoidable in starving to death I don’t have clothes to keep me comfortable or that fit me properly I created this fund for myself near end of life and after so I can have the things that I cannot afford on a regular basis in terms of actives while I’m in bed and not able to walk and use a wheelchair I’m bed bound and like to do alot of activities in bed I also have a bucket list of things and places I want to visit before I pass and I’m not able to afford those things and in the case of my starvation it’s left 3 weeks to maybe 2 months if I’m being generous I want to be able to complete those things but don’t have the ability to afford them or travel due to financial hardship I also want to be able to pick out my urn and buy my clothes I will be passing on I had decided on auquamation it is a cremation process which is natural and uses water to decompose your body and your left with bones from there they grind down the bones and you are able to get all of your remains back that process of cremation is 4000 dollars at the cheapest my remains will be placed in necklaces for loved ones and friends after I pass as well as a few urns for family to have and those can be pretty pricy I want to be able to carry out my end of life wishes anything helps and would be greatly appreciated by my family partner and me thank you so much for listening to my story and taking the time to hear my thoughts and voice