Help Me Get My Health and life back

I got breast implants after breastfeeding my child and getting used to having fuller breasts. And as much as I appreciated the physical appearance , I am now paying for it with my health and my mental well-being. Please help me get my health and life back. I did more research and see if any symptoms can improve and visited more doctors — but I’m fully convinced now. They are harming me and I’m ready to let them go and hopefully get my health and my life back.

Over the last couple of years, I’ve experienced random health issues. I had symptoms that looked like an abdominal aneurysm, but it turned out to be a widespread infection and inflammation of my organs. I needed an ultrasound and CT scan, and even after insurance, I ended up with a $2,700 medical bill.

I’ve had my eyes checked because I randomly get blurry vision with no explanation. Around this time last year, I also started having heart palpitations. I’ve developed a very low tolerance for heat and cold. Experience Hair loss and my nails are brittle, plus severe IBS… so I went back to the doctor and got referred to more specialist. We checked everything, gastrointestinal, hormones and thyroid — everythin! Now, severe anxiety and depression have kicked in. I felt so hopeless, I had very intrusive thoughts, but I knew my life was worth fighting for and holding onto. It was terrifying, and something I had never experienced before.

I felt so guilty for being depressed... Then extreme fatigue started. My joints hurt like rheumatoid arthritis, yet testing came back negative. My skin started breaking out on my neck and chest — right where my lymph nodes would swell. I had my minerals tested… everything came back perfectly fine too. Some mornings I wake up with so much inflammation, it feels like my body gained 10 lbs overnight. I used to be able to go to the gym, but now when I work out, my body gets so sore I can barely walk for over a week and can’t go back for at least two.

When someone first told me my implants could be the cause of all this, I didn’t want to believe it. I love my “twins,” and they look beautiful — and I was scared to let them go. But after endless doctor visits and medical bills, I have to face the truth and believe the thousands of women with the same testimonies (BII by Nicole on Facebook). I feel guilty and bad for the days I’m not a present mom or friend. I’ve isolated myself and become more and more unreliable to the people around me. I’m a single mom, and I already feel like my daughter doesn’t get everything she deserves — this has only made it worse.

I finally found a highly recommended surgeon who isn’t too far from me and has availability while my job is closed for the holiday break.

I booked the surgery and took a leap of faith… because I know it won’t get any better until I do this. Everyone who truly knows me, knows how hard this is for me, to be so vulnerable and ask for help. But unfortunately I don't see any other way at this point, then to ask for support and help.

Thank you so much for reading, sharing, and caring.