Hello everyone. If you know me personally, then you know this is very embarrassing for me. I’m out of options and even though I don’t expect anything from anyone, I figured it’s my last shot aside from selling my soul and body. On June 17th, I decided to save my own life and check myself into rehab. As I write this, on July 27th, I am still sober and attending meetings regularly. I expected my life to get a little easier but came home to utility bills through the roof. My MID is 415.00 and my PG&E is a whopping 225.00. My walk through here at the house was also happening and the people living here not only didn’t pay a dime and dipped out, but also couldn’t lift a finger to help fix the place up so that I could finish my last week in rehab and complete my program. Without worrying about passing my walk through. So here I am. I’ve been looking for a job every day. Public assistance has me backdated since June 5th with no solution in sight. My cell phone as of today is shut off. I have until the 31st for MID or that will be too and I received a 3-day pay or quit on Friday for my rent and my worst fear of being on the street with my son is coming true. Aside from job search and interview, I don’t leave my home, the stress is so overwhelming I’m having a hard time dealing.im losing my faith in people and in my myself. I don’t know what else to do. I have a lot of people in my life always saying “if you ever need anything let me know” but it’s hard for me to ask because I’ve never been this low or in need of help in my life. I feel very alone and useless since I can’t even hustle. I’ve had 0 income since I checked myself in, but Remaining sober is my first priority. I don’t even expect to see one donation on here but I’m praying some of the help and good things I’ve done for others the last 3 years will circle back around for my son and I now that we’re in need. Even if just my rent 1348 is met, I know I’ll figure a way out of anything else. I can prove everything down to the penny. I just want to start over and get my stability back and if you can help me in any way, even a job, I’d be forever grateful. I’ve called the places that give help and rental assistance places. They all give me the run around. I’ve done the footwork, or I wouldn’t be here embarrassing myself looking like a bum. (So please don't suggest CVOc or CHCs.) I’ll do anything for my son and myself to keep our home. I know I’ve made bad choices. I take full responsibility and I’m trying to fix it. I just need a little help making it right. Thank you. ♥️